always Kelz & DeE

2006-10-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

1 minggu dah berlalu

genap 5 hari aje aku puasa =)

can't wait for afad's gaji

wanna go geylang!!!!

i want that kebaya & kebaroNG!!!

nice i tell u!!...

carik sendiri kat kampung melayu aite...

2 days straight aku jumpa AFAD

ramadhan did make us try our best

not to meet as often as we always do hehehe

cobaan geng~

dunno when nak buka puasa dgn afad sey....

aiseyminah mcm paham lah lu hahah

i wont be update slalu coz

toilet bilik mak aku plak nak renovate..

comp in thier's bilik so mcm leceh ar

ni update pun becoz momsie's hubby pat hall

with my bro's pham & ma beloved afad

watching BANGKAI BERNYAWA...

missh having heart to heart talk with ..we really need tat now syg

as days goes by..

as bulan berganti bulan..

rintangan percintaan makin ketara...

seriously i cant handle it alone sia..

if not for afad tryin his best not being an EGO

i think dah lama dah kita KO!!

but that doesnt meant u guyz outhere

can seperate us...

wanna becoz of why aku confident benar...

coz my ex from ma

previous long bad relationship tiba2 muncul balik

and wantin to be with me..

i told him off nicely..

it's too late.. i'm attached..

and i really found my happiness..

im telling him this not because i want to avoid him

its the truth ..

I'VE FOUND MY HAPPINESS..

LOVE U AFAD BIOL AKA MR KELZ

ma phamly prob gettin worsen..

and im stress and feel so pressurize by it

seriously im not exaggeratin

baby syg...pweash bear with me

this month ma mood swing lagik teruk dari ma PMS

walaupun my menses lum dtg...hahaha

i tak take advantage of it...

i try ma best not to over ngada2...

if u happen to c me smile in tears...pls do comfort me k syg

K guyz aku rasa..tu je lah...

if aku update pun with gmbr....

but tunggu je lah ye..

for now

SELAMAT MALAM SMUANYE

p/s: sesungguhnya i wont restrict any of ur movement anymore..

2006-09-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

blogger have been a farkin bitch for bloody 4 days
wantin to update but was being bitched by it..
and what was really got on my nerves was
half of ma html GONE. . .
and i tried to find MY SAVE FOLDER OF CODINGS
sumone juz deleted it...
and tat sumone was me, myself & i...
i dont even know who de hell put my folder in
the BIN..and i juz emptied it.....
so since tuesday i've got a new layout been tryin to
publish it, but this sickenin blogger still not in the mood
to publish it for me
but today..blogger been so GD..
haha so im here to update and show u guyz ma layout
hahahah
i've to seek thousand n thousand APOLOGY
to ma dearest friend MOZZY!!
i've been workin on ya layout since last week and yeah
im dumb enough to deleted de CODINGS' folder...sux i know..
give me sumtime willl you??
gee~ thanx,
k 21 days to fa[d]ee 9 MONTHS TOGETHER
and 4 dats after day
HARI RAYA HARI YANG MULIA...
and 3 days after tat b'day ku...!!!
20 tahun mari!!
ke enough of my crap..
will be meetin my beloved AFAD tomorrow...
I MISSH U BIOL!!
i need to change my song...
i need to edit here and there...
so for the mean time my blog is
UNDER CONSTRUCTION mcm TOILET RUMAH AKU GAKZ

2006-09-22T10:30:00.000+08:00

im gettin more n more

frustrated with things around me

the prob tat im facin..

the pressure tat i've been feelin...

i juz need time to really ease myself

if not i'll get easily pissed...

but tat's not the reason why im mad at u

last nite..

u know who u're i dont want to mention name

it hurts me

`wen u juz walk off wen we in a middle of conversation

`wen u said tat im being difficult but actually

im being so understand to ask u to make a choice

what hurt me the most

is wen u msg me tellin me this

" blame me, n yes im arguin with u right now"

im in pain..

what am i suppose to do guyz??

giving in?

yeah i did..

i will be MORE understandin tat no one ever did to u ..

sighin...

when i asked u am i being difficult u said im not

am i being complicate u said all gurlz ar complicated...

so what up with all these..

sorie for swtichin off my hp and locked my hm phone

i juz need to be alone

like at last i'd my beuty sleep lastnite for 11hrs

althoug there's so many things in my head

i chose not to think of any..

so i drown my prob in my dreams...

so here im today readin all ur msg

i cried n cried..

chatiin with nasty most probarly i will be goin movies

later in de evenin..

i cant stand ..im pressurize.

fastin month is drawin nearer..

i've chose to fast..dun laugh give me support DUH!!

i dun even know what to update..

i think i'll be headin my bad in 10 mins time

my kitchen's toilet under construction..

hey banana ur daddy is here..

oh gawd..

ma heads hurt..

Morning people!!

p/s: am endurin the pain...u will never know what i've gone thru

2006-09-21T14:47:00.000+08:00

i think i've juz break my online promises

of not changin' layout again

kekek :D

i'm juz too free to do

and as for my babe mozzy

be patience aite ur layout cumin soon...

yesterday marked

fa[d]ee's 8 month anniversary!!

didnt get the chance to celebrate it coz afad's workin

but today haha he busy sleepin @ my comfy couch..

I LOVE U BABY!!

tat's all for now

sumone from my past wantin me so much..

but im sorie u're juz too late...

i know truth hurt

but it's betta to tell u den keep on hurtin u in silence..

i believe in god's work...

adiOZ

2006-09-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 22ND B'DAY BABY HEART!!!

MAY U STRIKE LOTTERY EVERYDAY =)

he's a great, understandin,negotiable,caring,

romantic,funny,faithful,honest & sincered loving guy. . .

he made a big impact in my life. .

i've vow and sworn over my soul

i wont ever leave him if the love still exist..

and if i does..

god knows how to punish me by breakin my VOW..

LOVE U AFAD

will be meetin him later

still waitin for my precious to call

hope today celebration will be awesome den last nite

sorie sayang

i juz bought u a cake and a card tat i've made myself

k lah...

tu je...

for kl trip nye gambar korang wait long2 ar...

i think im falling sick soon.. damn

2006-09-11T16:22:00.000+08:00

k as u guyz can see got cibai2

who pester me to update rabak sia

mcm tahu2 je aku dah balik hahaha

k walaupun aku penat

sayang korg pe pasal aku update

08th sept 06

afad came over ma crib from work

after finishing ma housechores

made a last packing den took cab to his crib

thought of wearin de same billabong shirt but

changed mind..wore de BLACK REV collar-Tee

same as momsie-in-law...

after smua dah berkumpul

bergerak from his crib ard 1800hrs. .

jalan tuas SECOND LINK...

stop @ dunno what petrol station

changed driver...

afad drove till ayer keroh..

at 1st i was so takot coz never once i see him drivin

hahahahaa but yet i slept so soundly @ de back

reached ayer keroh badok

den gerak reached KL ard 2315hrs..

waited for achit @ pham

den went to de apartment..

settled everything...

went out goin makan...

thought of clubbin at PLANET HOLLYWOOD

mak ai must above 21 den can MASUK

ramai gak yg bawah 21 termasuk aku

so tk jadi. . but some of de rev masuk ar..cibai!!

tapi tkpe...

den afad,abg boy,faidhi & shu steng $$

bought MARTEL!!

yeahness!!!

tak tengok time....main taitee aku je menang yeah!!

tak tengok time lagik

aku & afad tido...

best!! ma wishes come true..

i slept in his arm..felt so warm...

and the next day he got ngadu..

AKU HEMPAP TANGAN KIRI DIA

wakakakka

sleepin with u huggin me was awesome!!

tk termimpi terusssss

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09th sept 06

met momsie & daddy inlaw and also de rest of REV

went makan @ nasi ayam dunno what de stall name keke

after akan proceed to TIME SQUARE

played de game..stupid roller coaster!!

it was raining...heavily..

but it stopped ard 6pm...

some of de rev went back aprtment..

but me and rest..malas nak sebut nama went to

PETALING STREET SHOPPINg...

ard 9+ went back apartment..

took our stuff went REGENT

slept with MOMSIE & DADDY in law in DELUXE ROOM

yeah!!!

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10th sept 06

dengan smngatnye aku bangun dulu siaping..

wore de MUST BLUE KEMEJA REV

kekkee...

ard 8+am smua turun met pat apartment...

photo session

makan session...had roti canai lapar doK!

smua dah berkumpul bergerak g SEPANG!!

but kita van..stopped @ nilai makan...lagik hahahaha

den proceed sepang met the rest & rev melaka @ petronas..

den ticket diserahkan..

terus masuk @ watched...

BISING NAK MAMPUS!!!

nasib baik 1st 2nd race aku dpt tido..

wen motor 4 stroke pe race sial habis..

aku pekik2 pun tk dgr siol suara...

but best!!! ar coz aku bet on rossi

afad belo bet on pedrossa..padan muka padahal dah tahu sey

rossi will menang..at 1st aku cuak ar sebab cappirossi dah

overtake rossi but last lap rossi potong balik

woHOOoo so i won de bet!!

afad goin to treat me TO SPA on ma b'day...yeah!!!

reached hm ard 1115am

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actually aku malas nak update serious..

gamabr pun tkde...hehehe

aku tk ambik...pix smua pat afad sey...

later meet him nak go doctor...kesian member sakit...

gtg muaxxxx....

I LOVE U BABy!!!

2006-09-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

lets time & fate decide everythin

its raining outside

and im freakin cold inside momsie bedroom

hehe maklum belum mandi :D

will be goin to anne's crib later

coz i'll be having ma ngaji lesson again

afad's working today..

i'm missing afad like a mom who gadai her jewellery

@ pak ja'pa kekeke

seriously....

we had our heart to heart talk last nite...

but onli over the phone..

he's knows the reason behind my previous entry

he knows why im sad and phobia..

by talkin to him makes me feel relieved coz

everythin tat i've kept mum been poured out

juz wanna share my point of view

i know whoever read ma blog will agree with me

if tak agree tu korg pe pasal aku tknk tahu hehehe

lackin of attention lil bit will affect the relationship

everyone knows tat. . .

especially a sensetive defensive gurl like me..

hahahahahhaa

k baby!! u betta give me attention while we in KL SOON!!

dun care. . .

in relationship we juz have to keep comunicate

instead of giving SILENCE TREATMENT

cause it will only make the situation more worsen...

im lucky to have a guy like afad who's willing to hear

ku membebel until reachin the limit i juz dun let him speak..

im so cruel...hehe SORIE BABY!

i juz missh lookin @ HIM

kissin ma forehead showin how sincered and true his love for me

holding tight ma hand to keep me secure

huggin me to give me de assurance tat he'll always be there for me

i miss every single things he ALWAYS DO FOR ME..

the issues tat im having have been settled yesterday..

thanx to HER..everything is cleared..

hopin we'll still be in touch aite babe..

have no worries both me and him wont b holdin any grudges..

kalau jodoh tak ke mana...

last but no least..

I LOVE HIM

2006-09-04T17:57:00.000+08:00

why am i always hurt by the words?

is it becoz of the situation im in

or it's juz me??

i try to cheer myself up

but in de end will always be with tears

bloggin away @ anne crib's

waitin for ma aunt finish solat

then i will start ma ngaji lesson

i need to ease my mind

why am i always de one who cause an arguement

am i born to be a firestarter or what??

oh lord. . . .

im clueless. . . .

to tat sumone : I WANT things 2 B LIKE BEFORE

where i always have de laughter..

and vanish all ma sorrow..

pls bring de real sumone Back 2 me...

seriously u 've indeed change

u juz couldnt see..

i swear i love u

.....................

2006-09-04T14:51:00.000+08:00

am i a burden to u ?

am i enough for u?

YES DEAR

am i complicated?

TATS GIRLS

am i making a big fuss?

NOPE

ami a taker or more to give in?

WE BOTH MUST GIVE IN TO MAKE THIS

RELATIONSHIP WORKS

____Dee's Question & Afad's Answer___

as u u guyz can always see tat

i keep on changin my layout

i should say that this goin to be permanent for this yr

it's about ma feeling tat being disturbed by a

DOUBTFUL SOUL. . .

im takin a iniative to keep tellin myself

tat eveyrythin will be juz fine. .

and life must goes on

im not blamin anyone. .

im blamin myself for gettin into a "trouble"

which i never DID but have been accuse . . .
regret of chosin de path

and at de end of de day im de one who get hurt

sorie doesnt seems to be de hardest word

i know u've seek for forgiveness

and i've accept ya sincered apology

but the pain and phobia im facin

is more worst than i cud imagine. .

it affect ma confidence in mostly everythin i do

i know that u didnt have any bad intention

or purposely hurtin me. .

but i juz cant get over it. .

give me time. . .

cause only time will heal the pain

keep taggin aite bloggermatez

im missin afad badly. .

de inner HIM de most. . .

praying & hoping that i could face any upcomin obstacle

with patience

AND HIM by my side..'

vow ma soul over fa[d]ee tat no matter happen

we'll still be as ONE

p/s: for u guyz information...

HIM IS THE PERSON TAT I SOULFULY ATTACHED TO

aka AFAD my baby heart

2006-09-02T17:37:00.000+08:00

momsie in law tot im goin to batam

she told afad to tell me to be @ afad's crib tomorrow morning

but too bad i cant go

actually i wanna go

but i've to jaga ma momsie feelin plak

haiz. .

why must things get so complicated sey

si biol tu plak mcm tk paham2 yg aku rindu dia

dia balik jap agik ard7pm

but not meetin me. .

he'll be goin bowlin with his pham

arghhhhhhh

left alone like again..

momsie tk masak. . kena makan sardin je

ku dan bro isaac kelaparan berduaan. .

AKU RINDU AFAD...CIBAI

2006-09-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

takde ngaji sey kena con sia aku!!

baby i nak mitt u!!!

i rindu!!
balik!!

im bored actually hahaha

bye!!

2006-09-02T16:28:00.000+08:00

wastin my time updatin ma blog

coz in few mins time ma aunt will be reachin here

for what...??

i got ngaji lesson lah sia, 1st stage of nak repent ma sins slowly

hahahaa

im missin' ma afad badly

although i juz met him last nite. .

we go drinkin ar @ b.batok there again

tried to finish my 1/2 absolut also tk boleh

hahahaa

but there's some issue been goin on last nite

hmmmm

never mind that

i missh spendin time juz de both of us

sit @ one place

buy tid-bits & drink

holding hand and have our heart to heart conversation

it've been a while since we last had tat kind of talk sey

6 more days to ma 3 days 2 nite KL trip with him

tomorrow he'll be goin to batam with his pham

and can only get to meet him on monday

wahlau. .

alah senang ckp aku juz rindu dia lah. . .

alah yang ngada2 pun aku pe. .

well to some cyber peepz which i dun even know who u farkin are

and u guyz love to update info from ma blog. .

korang are kindly welcum to update more infor aite. .

i simply dun feel de pinch of u guy going aroun spreadin rumours about me. .

it juz a cyber shits which i juz cant avoid and have to go through. .

ma instinct keep on buggin me

tellin me tat

sumone out there been tryin to break fa[d]ee apart. . .

but thet keep on fail. . .

bad intention will be balas with bad retribution wakaka

so keep continue-in korg pe game

and im here juz sit and laugh ma ass off. . .

once karma played de game hahahaha

but just dun get on ma nerve aite. .

if u wanna know de outcome. .

dare u to try. .

love afad

afad love dee

and we're tryin to break free

k step lagu pelak geram je. . .

he's so much in love with me!!!

aku tk ckp cuma sampaikan ape yg dia ckp tadi pat phone!!!

hahahahaha k aku ngada2..peduli ape aku. .

k before ma entry kasi korg more boring

so i will end it here...

bye

p/s : although we juz reach our 7month + together..there's alot of thing tat we've to learn

about each other....lovin u worth livin ma life in hardtime. . u're ma pillar of strength...muax

2006-08-31T20:56:00.000+08:00

am i being lame??

im freakin out !!

ma relationship is close to perfect ahaha

it's not tat we doesnt argue or what. .

we did and always did. .

but the funny part is we always managed to make each other

put a big smile back again. .

it can be miracle when u believe. . .

k change de pix again. .

ya kaypochee i got alot of bloody free time. .

but there's alot to add here and there . . .

wakakakak

simplicity is ma middle name. . kan afad??

bukan ke or complicateD?? waakaka

afad helping out his mom doin deco @ dunno where

with his best cloz chikopek cuzzi NAZ

and me alone with dis comp of mine haha

oh no

ma sista juz come. . sibuk je. .

ok lah. . .

nak karaoke ar. . .

tomorrow will be goin out with afad yeah!!

nasty got free admission b4 11pm to ZOUK

i wanna go. . .but dah ade planned. .

sorie aite nasty babe!!

next time or one fine day aku akan club dgn ko

joget jgn tak joget!!

off to living room

nitez all!! =)

2006-08-30T16:59:00.000+08:00

i wont go blabberin shits aite

last 2 days tat was on monday

afad, naz, huda & me went to J.east swimming complex

reached there around 5pm

swim punya swim

terserempak pinkie & her fwen

den

terbalik boya session

ludah meludah

searchin for coin

badak berendam

diving pe diving. . .

ard 8.30pm

dipanggil naik hahahaa

Mandi + SiapPing

Huda & me met de guyz outside

dunno for what reason off we took cab to afad crib's

ard 10.30pm took mrt

alighted @ b.gombak

afad & naz bought

rojak mamak, absolut vodka, sunkist,chocolate cake,

2 special brew, 2 stout, kacang cap jari and hmm

tu je. . .total spendin $82

hahahahahahaa

lepak-in nearby naz crib's. . .

played pakau. .

dan terjadinya true or dare sessioN!!

doesnt want to elaborate here

coz r RATED DARE WAS BEING HELD BY BOTH OF DE GUYZ

hahahahaha only me & huda knew

k aku being tipsy sentiasa. .

afad & me took cab

and sent me hm

reached crib around 3.30am

and momsie mengamuk!!!!!!!!!!

so yesterday tat was on 29th august 2006

i was supposed to meet titi

but she didnt even call me

so pinkie rang me up @ ask for meet up

so i called titi @ she was so unavailable @ de moment

coz she's havin a prob and i was kinda bein told off sey by her

tkpelah...titi aku paham

while i wanna siaping

momsie dah jadi betina singa!!

by then i was with tears already. .

called pinkie and told her i cant make it. .

ard 8pm afad msg saying they'll be cumin over ma crib

the 3 stooges ( tak tahu spellin betul ke tak)

sape lagik if tak afad, nazri & huda ar. .

came over ma crib karaoke-ing

they reached ard 8.20pm

slackin for 2hrs +

they went hm ard 11.18pm

sumthin happened . . . managed to solve it. . .

k tu je. . .

bored ek entry aku ape nak buat. . .

4 days to go to ma BATAM TRIP ( HAVEN'T CONFIRM YET)

9 days to go to ma SEPANG TRIP!!

cant wait sia. . . .

to ma beloved, lovin joker baby heart afad :

i started to realise that u've begin to take iniative of giving in. .

u started to talk & question me @ a very nice tone

eventhough i misheard & misunderstand u almost all de time

u tried to even calm maself down

although u're furios @ tat point of time

baby sayang i stick with u it's becoz tat i know

coz u've giving me de assurance tat

u will always give me de best of u. .

THAT

u will never fail to make me smile ( tat's de truth i cant even deny)

i'm soulfuly devoted in love with u AFAD!!

and hope u're too!!. . .

i apprieciate every single things tat u've done and will do for me. .

keep showerin ur love & concern. .

coz it'll never be enuf for me hahahaa

k aku tamak. . .

sayang kau babY!!

2006-08-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

thought of karaoke-in
skali bapak zinana dtg nk discuzz ape ntah dgn bapak aku
so here i'm updatin my blog

i'm done with ma layout
the theme is about
two lovers who are addicted to each other
like a small kid craving for
MAC DONALD HAPPY MEAL. . . .
wakaka

from 17th august till 20 august
aku pat kuala lumpur
shoppin pat maan lagik
diorg pe PS ar
PETALING STREET. . .

bought guess hand bag
addidad red + white stripe jacket
diesel shoes for afad. . .
gold & white belt
blue copyrighted jeans
and black shaded
total of my spending is $190 ringgit. . .
wakakakakaa
oni spend 90+ s'pore dollars
kekeke best kan. . .

will be goin there again in september
WITH AFAD'S FAMILY & DE REST OF REVS
mesti gerek. . .
goin sepang lah. . tk pernah umur aku g sana
hahahaha
lookin foward sia. . .

well 2 days ago titi & pinkie
was supposed to cum over ma crib
but it was cancelled becoz of me
sorie guysz
luking for sumtin precious ar. . .
hehehe den afterward went jb
aku dah kena tukar gmbr!!!
geram!!!

so yesterday tot of changin ma passport photo
but tk jadi. . .
so thought of spending our time togetha
@ marina promenade. .
but was cancelled due to afad's momsie
was alone @ town are with fan-fan. .
decided to accompony her. .
after had our lunch @ cavana. .
last min changed of plan. .
afad's dad fetched us. .
and mama was there too . . .
off we went to mustafa center. . .
den i had ma egg thosai there too
yum2

den fecthed ibu @ jalan besar rd. . .
stopped @ marina south
played arcade . . .
erp dah habis aru balik . . .
but before we headed hm. .
went west coast park
bought fahmi's makan there. . .
i bought my mee hoon goreng kekeke
sent ibu hm @ b.batok
den balik rumah afad. .
KITA MAKAN LAGIK. . .. .
LEPAS TU BALIK
BEBUAL KEJAP DGN AFAD. . .
TERUS
ZZZZZZZzzzzz
mcm babi tk pernah tidur sia. . .

well the reason i decided to update ma entry was
becoz of s'pore idol . . . .
most of de audiences are so unfair sey. .
the one who's bloody not suppose to be in
de final 6 is still in de competition
how pathetic it can be. . .
i love matilda's to de core. .
she really can siNG!!
but u guyz doesnt voted her enuf. .
same goes to me hahahahaha
tapikan. . tk baik. . .
yg ade rupa tk ley nyanyi masih kat dlm
korg tahu sape ar. .
and tadi pe result. . pun geram je
mcm mana nurul maideen ley kuar. . !!!
pantat!!
k malas nak elaborate lagik. . . benci tau wakakaka

sumone made my day
and tat sumone is ma future in law
she's the one who makes ma insecure feelings
gone with juz a snap sia. . .
seriously. . .
im back to ma happy-self like 5 months ago. . .
i was with her & afad went to plaza singapure starhub's center
changin her hp. .
and one of de pekerje is bdk rev ar. .
he was like askin afad who am i and saying
afad ade bawak pompuan lain ape itu hari
ni yg baru ke . . .
juz becoz im wearing a veil. .
i know dia main2 ar. . .
skali mama (afad's momsie) bersuara
ni yg sama...cuma pakai tudung je. .
yg ni PERMENENT!!
hahahahahahhaa i love u mama!!!!!

k gtg mak aku dah mengamuk
nk kol afad. . . .

sungguh senang hati beta skrg
*evil laugh*

2006-08-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

ade je malaun malaun bodoh steal aku bandwith
geram xiia . . . .
nak benda minta lah aku bodoh sey
mak bapak tk ajar pe??
stupidd aku bukan pelokek ilmu. . .

well i change ma song
edit2 blog jap juz to kill ma boredom hehe
yeah i've put up a wishlist. . .
alah aku nak hint2 afad
so dia tahu ape nak blikan aku
hahahahahaha juz kiddin
if u baik hati why not kan kan kan
hehehe
and how abt de back ground. . .
i find it very nice. .
suits my layout. . .
i need to buy photo editor ar
cannot tahan with the trial one ar
like bitch sia. . asyik nak expired aje. . .

too bad i cant really celebrate my
7 month anNiversary with afad. .
why?
it's becoz im goin to kl this thursday nite
with ma phamz
and will onli be back on sunday nite. .
de next day afad will be workin. .
how cruel de time can be
so jealous of us. . menyampah. . .
so im being so shweetz . .
i decided to spend my lil-quality-time
with afad tomorrow. .
will be meetin him ard 1.30pm@ his crib's
he told me, if his house ramai makhluk2
we'll be off to somewhere else. . .
i love u baby!!!

da kul 10.20pm
am waitin for afad's msg
wah ni org tua ek
skrg suka sangat tk carik aku tau. . .
cubit nanti baru tau. .
kalau korg nak tahu. .
afad skrg dah jadi pemarah dan mudah terusik
hehehe . . .
serious. .
aku pompuan dia pun terperanjat sia. .
but i lioooke. . why
it does showed me how deep and true afad's love
towards me. . .
and i really apprieciate every single things he have done
words can't really describe how im feel and missh him right now
but still
i wanna say. .
I SAYANGKAN U BABY. . .

well guyz i wont be bloggin till monday
tu sebab aku update nari. . .
so i gues on monday will be lOng LonG entry
for u guyz to read. . .
will missh u guyz. .
hey pinkie mana kau. . . haix. . .
before i forget. . .

(ADVANCE WISH_+)

HAPPY 19TH B'DAY
TO BOTH LADY JAY & KAY

HAPPY 21ST B'DAY TO
AMOY

HAPPY 7 MONTH ANNIVERSARY
TO FA[D]EE!!!

gtg guyz afad dah kol hehehe

p/s : like at last i feel @ ease. . . someone has moved on with his life...
i'm glad...im in peace and .i love afad even more. . .

2006-08-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

I KNOW WHERE I STAND
I KNOW HOW ATTITUDE I CAN BE
BUT IM TRYIN MA VERY BEST TO CONTROL IT
I KNOW HOW LOUD AND SACARSTICLY I CAN BE
I KNOW HOM I'M ALWAYS-LIKE-FINDING-FAULT
BUT U'RE BLOODY WRONG I'M NOT!!

"there's no use tokin nicely 2 u anymore"
IM FUCKIN PISSED
AND DEEPLY HURT WITH YA WORDS
BY ALL MEAN DO WHATEVER U WANNA DO. . .

I'M SORIE FOR BEING LIKE A SHIT TO U
I'M SORIE FOR MAKING YOU MAD...
TILL MADE U STOP THINKIN AND JUZ TALK YA HEART OUT
AND IN THE END IT BLOODY HURT ME

ITS MA FAULT
AND I DO BELIEVE I WILL ALWAYS HAVE ONE
BUT WHATEVER IT IS. .
TILL DEATH I WILL REMEMBER WAT U'VE JUZ SAID. . .

FANCY TALKIN OVER THE PHONE LAUGHIN
WHILE I'M CRYING AND TYPING OUT MA ENTRY. . .
I'M FUCKIN UPSET. . .
I JUZ WANT TO HEAR SORIE FROM U
BUT FAT HOPE....

IT SEEMS SO HARD TO SAY SORIE EH??

IM STILL WAITIN

WAITIN. .. .

WAITIN........

WAITIN...FOR YOUR SORIE. . . .

OH LORD. . .
TAKE ME AWAY. . .
I'M DONE . ..

[[[6 days to FA[D]EE'S 7 MONTH TOGETHER ..]]]
i love u afad. . .
and really do. . .
hope we can still rock each other life till de last breathe we have. . .
but if u choose to leave me
i will always pray for ur lifetime happiness
amin~

I want u becoz i need u,

and i really want u badly!!!!

u're de greatest bestest GIFT dat almighty gave me. . .
i love u

really love u

really & really love u
and forever do...:(

HAPPY 7 MONTH TOGETHER
IN ADVANCE AFAD SAYANG

p/s : pardon ma english very poor. . .afad i love u sia:(

2006-08-14T11:15:00.000+08:00

alersmak pinkie merajuk geram je aku
oit pompuan aku rindu ko ar cibai!!!
tkkn syg aku mcm gini pun nk merajuk. . .
tkpelah pasal ko dah 20 aku bikin exceptional hehe

aku update on hari aku kuar aje lah k

11th august 2006

met afad @ cck interchange. .
lOok 4 His spec @ lot 1
den Tak ade
patah balik his crib. . .
makan. . .
lepas tu aku lupa ape jadik serious
den ard 9pm his momsie went bbdc
waited for his dad ar pasal nk go railway
but tk jadi.. his dad penat
so wait for abg boi to fetch us @ 10.30pm. .
since afad promised nk blikan botol
we went cheers
afad buy 2 hitam & 2 special brew for NAz
later abg boi pun sampai
den NAz pun sampai. ..
naik abg boi's car proceed
suntec ambik si mat CARREFOUR ni BUNNY~!!
den proceed railway . . .
aku tk duduk dgn nasty & naanaa* uwekkk
nasty muka ade tu lemah ar. . cnfrim nagntok
pasal smlmnye member smngt g CUBE. .
amaciam gerek?? cnfrim nye. . . !!
korg perasan ade sumthin amiss??
yeah!! ma drink where's ma drink. . aku tk bli
aku pun tk tahu asal . . .
ard 1.15am gitu alik
hantar bani & alip den followed by me den aru afad
reached ma crib ard 2am
tok2 jap terus gedebap tido pasal afad kerje besoknye.. .

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

13th august 2006

afad came back from his work
juz had his 5hrs sleep. .
den kena kejut dgn BOI CINER
hahha aku suruh. .
msn dgn si boi den dia minta AFAD's no
dah alang kepalang. . kejutkan aje. . .
supposely he must meet me @ 12.30pm
but fat hope, he met me @ 1pm
why?? it's because he woke up @ 12.15pm
k geram je. .
den he ambik aku pat rumah. .
kuar walked g sheng shiong. .
buat ape??
hahahaha afad treat me to JACK DANIEL ar
gerek. . okielah worth de $$$ baru kena $58.90
hehehe
den he being so generous. .
we took cab to NAZ tumpang's crib @ outram there. .
i make new fren. . but not exactly make new fren ar. .
mariah's galfrenz was there too gegerl & adeq. .
to ma surprise gegerl is BOI CINO pe matair
who's boi cino?
hahaha MA CUZIN JAUH coincidencely dekni
ma future-brotha-in-law member!! hahaa
ZINANA kau kenal dia kan kan!!! yg tinggal teban tu
ahahahahah
because cino came later on tot of fetchin gegerlz hm
tapi kena wait long2 pasal
gegerl, adeq followed mariah ambik syafa' @ jurong point
so while waitin for mariah & gegerl balik
ape lagik sental lah. . .
skali naz's old man balik dah. .
dah mcm bangla aku,afad,cino@naz lepak-in pat bawah
minum. . .
den ard magrib baur naik had our 2 more cupz lagik
took cab terus gerak balik afad's crib. .
nampak mcm bdk rev bnyk,,,
we stopped @ coffe-shop nearby
aku touch-up ar sikit
serious giler aku tipsy. .
aku rasa duina yg bergerak aku tk gerak2
ahahaha. . den meet afad's fwen boi ciner. .
hahahaa dekni sbrg . . tau
afad thought of buyin body spray @ 7-11
tapi si boi ni main spray je to body spray pat bdn kita
we were laugghin as we walked back hm . .
bdk2 rev ddah tkde
den aku step control salam afad's parent. .
argue ngan mak afad nk cuci cawan & pinggan
hahahaa den lipat kain. . terus masuk bilik
main puzzle bubble tu pun aku tk kuasa
tk ley concentrate
den we got took some pix tau. .
but pat dlm hp nanti aku minta afad. . .
hehehe
for de 1st farkin time aku tk mabuk rabak sey
hahaha

yanti!!! aku nk minum2 dgn ko. .
bley mentel~~
pinki!!! dah lama aku tk minum & lepak dgn ko
sampai aku asthma attack
fiza!! dah laam aku tk minum dgn ko kat promenade!!
u de 1st gf dat meet ma afad heheh

btw kan i really gtg. . .
afad dah sampai rumah aku. ..
nk kena mandi. .
si biol ni step tadi kol aku ckp nak mandi
skali dah sampai rumah aku babi betul . .

kita nk gi town-ing nari
aku nk bli baju ar hehehe :D

p/s: i missh all ma gf especially afad..ahaha afad gf aku memang!!
wakakakak

2006-08-11T13:32:00.000+08:00

k pantat aku dah tukar gmbr
ngada2 sye pinkie geram je aku
cnfrimn kau suka kan gmbr baru yg aku upload
dah berumur pun nk ngada2 hahaha

aku ade sedikit malas nak update abt yg lepas2
aku story2 sikit2 je k

on de night of 8th august
ma family plus ma aunties & cuzZinz exclude ma old man
went to esplanade juz to watch 10mins fire work
how GILER we can almost B,
afad came late
becoz of his careless watever la malas nak elaborate
he reached esplanade dunno ard wat time
but he a BIT LOST. .
i was @ de oni entrance facin de sea
but he cant even get me sia. .
we were like itik and ayam
kasi direction tapi tak paham. . .
i was really mad ar mcm nak break down gitu
at last si afad jumpa gak. .

den i rushed to ma family nye tempat
skali packed gila nk gerak susah dok~
ma cuzin who accompanied me waitin for afad tadi
dah lost touch plak. . belo jalan sendiri
mengamuk lah tu . .
after de 10mins-tak-puas-tengok-bunga-api session
smua decided to go makan2 @ lau pa sat . .
makan pe makan. .
ard 11.45pm aru gerak alik
took cab. . baby pun voice out nak bayar kan cab
ape lagik momsie muka ade bnyk senyum je. . .
he kena near $20 sia sunGGuh melampau. . .
never mind afad sayang dee kan ...tahu ahaha

tu je citer untuk hari tu. . . hehehe

today will be meetin afad
janji kul 2pm @ his crib
but now kul 1.37pm masih dpn comp update entry
ahaha and plus i belum mandi lagik uuuuuuuuuu
maybe follow him carik specz. .
and all de GosSipIN KhaKIz of Tm
aku turun k malam ni . . jumpa kORg di Sana..........

before afad kol tanya aku dah siap lum
aku betta berambus duLU
adiOZ chIkaz & chIkaNOz. . . .
toOdlesss!!~

p/s : i love afad. . . dia bangun tido mUka ade banyak hensem
dee bangunt tido muka ade tu serupa sinGa betIna =)

2006-08-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

lagu sedih ek
hahahahahaa
i juz love this song. .
and of course ade meaning behind it. . .

woHoooo
now afad & his momsie @ cuppage
changing his mobile no.
yeahness of me!!
boHooooo for all de ..:: TerHegeh2 peoPLe ::..
like at last. . gitukan
been askin him to change it since
4months ago
aahahahahaha

well korg smua. .
today's ma bestie PINKIE 20th b'day. . .
happy b'day to u
happy b'day to u
happy b'day to pinkie tikus
happy b'day to u ...
ahahahaha

11 more days to kay
and 12 more days to
fiza & lady J. . . .
bnyk betul ar august babe. . .
aku nye b;day je lagik jauh. . . .ahahahahaa
but. . .
my 7month together with afad
falls on de same date as fiza & jay. .
yeahness!!

by the way
afad will be cumin over later
coz aku yg suruh. . .tadi called dia
aku rindu dia ar
nak tak tau asal. .
i'da bad dream about him sey. . .
seram gila nye. . .
takot dokkkkkkkk
walaupun slalunye if a bad dream
it will turn de opposite wen comes to reality
but aku takot je. . . peduli ape aku
aku juz take precautious ( k aku sbrg tembak ek...
sorrie ar english tk betul...wakakak)

btw nari ade bunga api lagik pe??
wahlau. . .
momsie and de rest of ma cuzzinz & auntie
ajak pergi. .
den aku ajak afad..jahat ek . .
ntah dia nak ikut ke tak. . ..
becoz if dia ikut. . dis is de 1st family outing
afad pergi for my side waakakakakaka

people prones to make mistake. . .
promises always meant to b break. . .
we aren't perfect. .
compromising doesnt always make
a good relationship. .
the main ingredients
will always be about GIVE & TAKE. . .
none of those. . juz say gdbye to relationship. . .
if one loves de partner. .
lying will not be de medicine to cover a pain . .
k dee emosi. . wakaakka
tat is jzu my point of view . . .

baby sayang. . .
i love u and really do
i apprieciated all things u've done for me. .
never once a guy cud melt ma heart
for this long. . and still melt it. . .
except u . .
ape tangkal u pakai. .
i never been so happy for thsi long in a relationship. .
happiness continuosly. .
sadness did came once in a while. .
but becoz of we love to talked. . .
it doesnt seems to feel a difficult issues to solve. . .
thanx almighty for all this. . .

love u lord
love u afad. .
love my soul
for being blessed. . . . .

2006-08-06T15:38:00.000+08:00

1stly mcm biasa reply taggies dulu

*mya* : hie dee...bubyeee dee! =) saje jer nak tag
midiosa : hie mya..bye mye!! =) saje jer nak reply haaha

kay : asal nama aku short form sak tak adil siol. . .
baong sak prangai kau moz
midiosa : aku takut aku letak nama ko full...ko marah
nama ko dgn moz kan vintage ...hahahaha

pinkie : suars sak!!
midiosa : are u in de right channel?? wakakaka

keci[k]enit : waduh.. lawah sik layout.gwe miss kM! tkcr:D
midiosa : eleh dia nye layout lagik lawak gmbr berlampu2
agik kekekeke

naanaa`: taknak update ke blog awak?
nak baca pls.
midiosa : uwek tgh nak update ar ni wah dia pe gossip
sampai blog wakakakakaka....u know i noe =)

moz : yelah aku baong! kau baong hutang!kahkahkah
midiosa : oit moz burger...baong hutan ke baong hutang
wakakakakak

04.08.06

genap 2 bulan ma bro tunang kahakakakah
chey aku kaypo so aku kira ar
tk susahkan korg kan hehehe
afad forced me xiia
ajak go railway. . . geram je. . .
afad came over ma crib
mcm biasa gakz pagi buta. . .
dekni memang dengki. .
asal pagi buta pasal dia baru alik work ar
ard 4+pm decided to balik rumah afad plak
siap2 mcm mami jarum like naanaa` ckP!!
haahahha uwek. .
but never mind....memang aku dah ade darah
dari penang pun woHOoooo. . .so
che' tak ley nak avoid. .
reached afad's crib ard 4+ ar. .

aku tk tengok jam ar. .

pasal aku tk pakai!! bodoh sey

tkkn aku jalan masuk satu jam kan. .

rumah aku dgn afad bape bustop je. . . .

den came huda & naz

played taitee

k aku kalay strait sia. . .geram je..

after dat played Xbox plak. .

pun aku kalah geram aje. . .

tapi huda nak main card balik. . .
so we all bet ar sapa kalah 2 in a row
dia kena senduk nasi. .
den NAZ KALAH and he being a sore loser
tukar rule ckp. . .nak kena kalah 3 in a row
geram je. .
but tetap dia kalah ahahahahhaa
so had our dinner together2 mcm dah lama gitu
tk makan sama...last mkn mcm gitu 3 month ago
ahahahaha . . .
den my father-in-law balik
so we gerak ambik ma momsie in law @ BBDC
den strait g railway. .
meet lah smua. . . .
fifi, yanti, naanaa` ketawa kelakar sram, fefe
ahaahahhaha
den we was like gossipin
about this one gurl ar. .

aiyah...i dunch really know tat gurl ar

but dekni memang muka steppin nak mampus

padahal bdk2 agik. .

i knew her before i even met de rev & afad

i think she knows everyone been tokin behind her back ar

but she shud take iniative to change people thinkin

pe so bukan salah kita nak gossipinahahahha. . .

org lain bawak org lain sapu

so korg get the picture??

bagus. . . .

k tu aje. . . malas nk cite. . .
hmmm

on 05.06.06

tot of spending time with afad
sumwhere else after ma ngaji-session
in de afternoon...
but ma plan was cancelled coz
afad wanted me to followed in
go makan-makan with his
momsie-side family

celebrated his ATUK'S B'DAY. . .

fetched his bibik * family @ clementi

den went to

perkampungan melaytu @ geylang

bcoz his nenek & atuk got jemputan. .

afad ketuk his momsie belik makan

geram je. . ami pun sama...

ketok tak agak2 den kekek sia

step bayar hahahaa....

den atuk & nenek pun dtg

naik VAn went ECP makan ar

lagik tk tahu. .

met pak long & family too. .

ard 10+pm gitu
went to tampines ST 11
afad & momsie nak buat ape ntah
dah habis
gerak went newton. .
fetch afad's old man. . .
switched driver. . .
sent bibik's & family hm
followed by nenek & atuk
den me!! hahaha. . .
and i recieved KISSES from afad
yeah!!! kissed of de day
suka best ahhaa
talked to afad for 1hr+ i guess. .

he smsed me sumthin tat

really melt ma heart. . .

and i started to miss him damn badly

meh aku share dgn korg ape dia msg. .

korg nk ckp aku perasan korg pe pasal

but he always get to make me smile w/o fail

love ya baby. .

k the msg goes like this

"Good night sayang ku
intan payung pasu bunga hehehe baby u
g tidur dahulu...... kita ni kelakar,
happy jap gaduh jap
but it'll always be ok cause we'll always
love each other forever n keep our love growing.
i will slalu treasure our relationship..

never had

a reali eonderful realtionship wif anione else

except u, dah lah cute lawa manis pretty

voluptous big boobs hehehe pantat nice lovely gorgeous funny
loving caring got strong character hav gd chemistry wif me
faithful unflirtish errr ade ke word tu heheheh ...l
melebih eh fad k lah u dream of me n

always

berdoa for our happiness tau sayang...

i seriously really betul2

sayang ma futur wif yg bernama NURAZEAN bte *******

ok sayang i sleep dulu
love u syg
kiss u sayang
heart u syg
muackkkkz
muackzzzzzzzzzzzzz"

k yg belakang2 censored tk ley story wakaka
afad is such a dearie to me. .
and he juz called tadi
rindu ar tu. .
cant wait mlm
have to ring him up if not membebel plak dia. .

afad syg. . . .
after dee dpt msg smlm. .
u totally shut me off. .
what i meant by tat. .
im speechless. . .

with de name of god

im burst to tears of joy

been kissin a potret of urs

till dee fell asleep. .

u're precious to me baby. .
and will always will . .. .
how i wish time doesnt jealous with us. .
if not we've been a lawful husband & wife
cheydebah. . ..

k lah guyz. . gtg. . . muackz...

too experienced to feel de hurt

2006-08-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

ftt~Where do you live?
[nearby cck ave 1]
~Latest addiction?
[eatin ]
~Song that you're listening right now?
[house & trance ]
~What are you doing right now?
[answerin all this stupid Q.]
Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
[afad aka ma baby heart_mrkelz]
~If you were a toy, what would you be?
[barbie doll]
~Where would you want to go on your honeymoon?
[no where..i hate flight )=]
~What's your ringtone?
[sientelo]
~What do you think a toblerone is?
[sweet]
~What are you wearing right now?
[momsie`s butterfly]
~Do you wear contacts?
[never]
~What was the best advice ever given to you?
[can't remember]
~Can you drive?
[hell no]
~What are your plans?
[gettin engaged to afad, den married to him, den beranakpenak]
~Favourite Film?
[pirate of carribien- de curse of de black pearl]
Do you like to dance?
[ok ok ar sway-in]
~Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
[nope]
~Worst feeling in the world?
[being cheated by my sayang [ belum pernah lagik..mau try je]
~Worst sound?
[FAKING ORGASM]
What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
[check ma hp]
~Roller coaster, scary or exciting?
[scarry]
~How many times do you let the phone ring before you answer it?
[cant be bother to count]
~Is the glass half full or half empty?
[huh?]
~Your best physical feature?
[afad said ma boobs wakakaka]
~Milk or white chocolate?
[milk]
~Day or night?
[night]
~Summer or winter?
[summer..i hate cold!! wait later asthma!!]
~Cake or pie?
[cake]
~Diamonds or pearls?
[diamond...]
~Sunrise or sunset?
[sunset]
~Have you ever broken a bone?
[dunno~]
~You hate people who are?
[man-snatcher & backstabbin!!]
Do you believe in fighting?
[nah..i dun really know how to fight..]
~What skill do you wish you had?
[nah i dun even wish to have any skill]
~Where are your favourite places?
[ma bedroom]
~Who sent you last sms?
[shud be afad]
~Last sms you sent to?
[afad]
Last person you talked on the phone?
[afad]
~People whom you chatted with last night?
[afad]
~Last photos you took with friends?
[neoprint @ heeren]
~any plans of going out?
[next saturday..go drinkinG!!!]
~What would you do after answering this bulletin? ~
[update ma entry]
Last question: Your tag victims?
[titi`vok, ct, nadd, baby`sweetie, zinana]

woah~
at last habis jugak. . .
nasib baik si moz tagged if tak
aku tak update2 blog nie. . .
bear with me coz it will be a long entry..
like duhhh~

on de 31st july 06
went out with pinkie & fiza to town. .
accompanied pinkie
to
TOP SHOP`s @ marina square
ZARA`s @ marina square
she bought 4 tops. .
aiyah. .
den walked @ city link
she bouht $39.90 sandalz. .
den took mrt alighted @ orchard. .
went
TOP SHOP`s @ wisma. .
she bought 1 pants n stupid sandalz
or shoes to be exact again. .
met fiza @ infront of Lv's Store. .
singgah paragon. .
tengok titi keje ke tak. .
too bad. . she's not there. . aiyo. .
proceed lucky plaza. .
pinkie bought her perfume @ $100
for 125ml. . wow. . gd bargain. .
stupid u!!. . .

lapar nak mampus. .
pinkie blanja me WHOPPER MEAL
@ burger kings beside wheelock`s
ard9pm+
walked down to heeren
took some neoprint. .
10.30pm bergerak alik. .
pinkie dgn smngt g HRC pada hari isnin. .
with lots of paper bag wakakak. .
never mind. .
took 190 to CCK ave 1
reached hm ard 11.25pm. . . ahahaha
penat gilanye!!!

1st august 06

afd came over to ma crib
pagi nak mampus. .
and i was like half dead. .
zombie siot. .
mata goldfish gilernye. .
ard 1+pm gerak g rumah dia plak
dengki kan dia. . memanG!!
one of his fren juz kuar from RUMAH BESI
so will be cumin over his crib ard
2+pm. .
den came his camp's frenz . .
DOn & syawal. . .
followed by his Fren yang baru kuar
boy`ciner & his cuzin naz. .
karaoke-in. . .
skali tiba2...badan aku panas nk mampus. .
tat was wen aku demam. .
so tak jadi ikut afad gi minum. .
ard 0715pm he sent me back hm. .
sampai je rumah terus aku kondem!!. .
ard 1030pm afad kol aku. .
we talked till hmmm
1230am. . .
terus tido~~~~~~~~~~~

so yesterday tats was on 02 august 06. .

afad came over ma cribs again . .
and had sumthin goin on between us. .
dun really need to reveal it here. .
--------

i did seek some advice from TITI`vok juz now abt smlm..
and i will heed it. .
thanx darlz. .

baby syg . . .
since u've promised me
and did shed tears..
sedikit sebanyak i cair
kerana begitu kuat kasih syg u terhadap i. .
i apprieciated tat u did wanna explain. .
but it still hurt. .
but since u've promised me
i'm giving u a chance for u to make up &
learn your mistakes. .
may be it wasnt a big issues for u. .
but for me hell yeah!!. . .
have no worries baby~
my love for u will never change. .
infact i will love u even more. . .
and i've been missin ur hug & kisses. .
wen will i get dem ek?

tomorow
pinkie, fiza & kay will be cumin over. .
lepak-in...
pinkie will cook for us!! yeah best!!
i cant make it for pinkie b'day celebration
@ dblo today. . so
tat explain why we have a meet-up
besok. . and
aku ade mission
hope everythin goin on smoothly. .
love u guyz. .

maybe mlm nye i'll be meetin afad...
im missin him badly..haiz
17 days to go to our 7 month together
we still rock each other life. . .

pls ek to whoever tat kenal afad
or dulu
ade pernah SYG PEGI SYG BALIK dgn afad. .
dun be lame to kacau-mengacau OUR relationship
tu lah bila dulu dia nak korg tknk
skrg terhegeh..padan muka
wakaka
adioz...

2006-07-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

it seems like we argue everyday...
i noe i misbehave
and u make ur mistake
and we both still got room left to grow
and thou love sumtimes hurt
and i still put u 1st
and we'll make this things work
and i think we shud take it slow
we juz ordinary people
baby we shud take it slow...
this time we shud take it slow

had a lil misunderstandin with afad juz now. .
he did all the talkin
regardin abt ma attitude especially de way i talked. .
it does hurt me inside. .
but when i tried to calm maself down
and think back. .
i knew i'm at fault. .
i cried. . and only cried in silence. .

one thing tat im not good enough is
to continue a conversation after lil`arguement. .
i only preferred to shut maself. .
and forget about everythin. .

baby syg
i'm sorie for suggestin to hang up de phone
coz i know myself betta den anyone else does. .
not even u. .
u will know de really me preTTy soON
coz we still work things out. .
still in process knowin each otha in AND out. . .
i know for sure im goin to be MORE HARSH
if i talked ma heart out wen i'm pissed. .
and it will oni worsen de situation. .
so SILENCE IS de BEST UBAT to EASE
DE ANGER-MANAGEMENT IN ME

baby syg. .
plz have a lil more n more n more n more patience
in toleratin with ma attitude...
give me sumtimes to change...
im not gd to talk with lower tone of voice..
im not a pretender. .
i wont talk happily wen ma mood swing badly. .
sarcastic is de best way to describe de way i'm!!. . .
i'm sorie for being a shit to u. .
i wont wanna hurt u but i've hurt u
i dun wanna disappoint u but deep inside i did. .
sorie for not being de bestest gf like i promise. .
i LOVE u. . .
and will always DO. . .

it's nature for couple to have some fight. .
give and take is de only reason
tat a rocky relationship stay strong than before. .
de ingredient in relationship + ma experienced. .
made me more matured to handle complicated
issues wisely. .
haha ...
tat's why i chose to keep MUM!!
so tk gaduh. . .
im being perasan but tats me. . .
dun like? detest? hate me??
do i care? no!!
tapikan tetap gaduh kalau diam. .
haix!!.....

baby once again im sorie sayang. . .
sorie for being harsh like i did juz now. . .
i will try not to repeat de same mistake again. . .
if i did. . .
pls dun leave me. .
guide me like u will always do. .
and guide me forever. .
lookin 4ward by end of this yr. . .mission. . .haix...

2006-07-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

k let me reply to all taggies 1st

kay : benda dah terjadi, but im glad dat she still
care 2 called me sey, ape gmbr buang
kenangan xiiia..........!! syg titi`ketot tkde . . .

fiona : amin~

chicka : saya tk naik motor sayang. . .

titi : thanx pretty for ya compliments of ma blogz
ya it sad to c sumone gone from ma life
even sad if tat sumone i never had de chance
to c and tok to him/her 4 de last time :(

Moz : i will always flood ya blog k if ko nak ar hehe
aku tk rajin nk buatkan layout. . kekeke
if kita lepak-in kita ajak ko, den ko ajak d*i*n*a
skali owite setet!

kit : it really sad. . but life still goes on. . thanx syg~

mimi caramel : hart u too sayanG!!!

nanachica : naf_suicide@hotmail.com
asal tutup blog geram je aku ar!!

fiza : i will call u!!! monday ni kita jumpa k babe~.. .

d*i*n*a : hehehe u welcum babe. . .
ko pe sombong pat msn pun ley tahan keke

zinana : pls dun be sad, coz i'll be sad too. . .
kita ni mcm slalu ade connection plak ek
u remember nizam bogeh?? but de other one yg nak
kenal with me lah. . wiwi. . hahaha he smsed me @
ma mum hP! but me buat bodoh. . menyampah xiia

_______THE END_________

u can hear datin ct nye suara mentel @ de end of de song
wakaka. . i juz realised xiia. .
geli pun ade hahaha
tapikan. . de song tat she sang really awesome
loving it...

hey guyz thanx for always updatin ma life. .
thanx for taggin. .
if u wish to get close to me. .
drop by @ msn and add me aite. .
i wont bite. .

in process 2 get over what have happened. .
trying 2 help ma bestie overcome her traumatized
but. . it have been 2 days i didnt get 2 talk to her. .
wanna call her up but afraid
she might be workin. . and i dun want 2 ganggu. .
hope she's doin fine on her side. .

yesterday went west coast park with afad. .
had heart 2 heart talked. .
from 7.45pm till 9.40pm~
and this time around. .
we promised each other not to mention
or talk about our past especially our EX
coz de conversation will surely
ruin our mood. .
and make us argue even more waakaka
biasalah we tend to get jealous over it haha
although its only de past
but tats nature for us people xiia. .

like afad said. .
GUY ARE SIMPLE
GIRLS ARE COMPLICATED
tat's why got SIMPLE GUY. .
it really bloody hard to understand us GIRL
but we apprieciated if THE GUY
show and try to understand us. .
hehehe :D

actually i've got nothin 2 blog. .
juz woke up from ma 8hrs of sleepin. .
need to finish all de househcores
coz will be meetin afad later on @ his crib's

k lah smua. .keep taggin aite. . hearts u alL!!!

2006-07-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

edited in yellow

taggiess will only be reply in de next entry
and all the linky2 DONE!!
thank you. .

bad flu and sore throat strikes me again
so pissed every time sneezin. .
my nose in pain . . so red. . .like clown. . .
irritate me everytime i wanna sleep. .
fucked up xiia. . .

life's for me been goin on pretty marvelous
5 thumbs uP!!. .
im gettin more n more attached to afad
and his family. .
and same goes to him

yesterday afad and me went
JURONG EAST SWIMMING COMPLEX
with ma bro's family
from 3.45pm till 6.45pn
3 hrs aje. .
actually afad reluctant to go
but at last he gave in to me haha
thanx baby i owe u one. . .

swimmin on monday
thought there will not be lots of people
damn i was bloody wrong. .
wakakaka
dun even bother. .
i had fun. . we had fun right baby?
do u? kekeke
baby i love u like no one did!!
ahahahaha and tat's de truth
not tryin to be perasan. .
korg go ask afad if tk percaya plus K-po ;D
wakakakaka

between me and ma ex-bestfren-who-i'd-
lil-misunderstand-goin-on-between-us-dat-i
-really-missh-her-presence-in-ma-life
gettin on pretty well too,

hikmah disebalik pemergian arwah
SAIFUL AIDIL. .
that
we started to talk to each other
like we used to
sharing thingz back. .
laugh @ each other. .
experiences have made us more matured . .

kay & fiza
aku dah baik dgn dia. .
u guyz know rite how MUCH i missh her
and she missed me too
despite wat telan happened between us. .
thanx god that dis friendship bloomed back . .

through CHUD SORORITY i met
kay, fiza, yanie & titi. .
de 5 of us. .
but never get to really chill together2. .
but i will always treasure, cherished & mesmerized
all de memories we had. .

well guys. .
i know im lame. .
but im goin to be online in MSN again
so u guyz can get thru me easily
maklum hp aku tk ter-topup!!. . .
do tag me ur email @ ma tag-board
so i can easily add u back. . hehehehe
thanx. . .
BUT NO GUYZ. . .

afad i'm sorie about this. .
i know im being cruel
but ma fren whom i really wanted so much to be in ma life
has returned to me . .
and i hope by online again in msn
who knows, even i never know if i got de last
chance to chat with dem
or de other
way round..
NO ONE knows if im de one who'll be goin 1st or dem..
i juz doesnt want to have dis
"misses friend wen dey gone" thingy in me. .
i hope u understand me like u always did. .
with de name of god dee sayang baby!!. . .

de end

2006-07-22T06:46:00.000+08:00

silence for 2sec or more. . .
or u guyz can juz pause ma song. .

sumome messes up ma dream sighin. .
and it was ma momsie. .
when im about to reach lala-land
she woke me up. . and it was 40mins ago. .

she said ma fren called and
ma fren got a bad news. .
and i was like wat???
bad news @ 6 in de morning??

rushed to momsie bedroom
and put de phone to ma ears. .
i heard sumone was cryin so badly
on de other side. .
and told me. .
AIDIL HAS JUZ PASSED AWAY. .
innalillahiwainnalillahirajiun. . .
and ma fren who told me
is ma long-lost-ex-best-fren
who-i-had-a-lil-misunderstandin-goin-on-
but-i-still-missh-her-presence

i was so shocked upon hearin de news. .
and to add more sad. .
she told me tat arwah missed me. .
and he saw me few days back
and i was with afad. .
he wants to say HI. .
but he was afraid. . .
so he told ma fren to tell me. .
and ma fren didnt send any regards. .
haiz. .
ALLAHYARHAM AIDIL. .
I REALLY FORGOTTEN HIS REAL NAME. .
met & known him middle 2004
he was a cheerful guy and he admired me . .
but i was with sumone back den. . so he respected me
and u guyz wanna know, he juz 19 dis yr

now. .
HE'S GONE IN MA MEMORIES. .
I CANT CRY??
AM I BAD??
i feel so awful. .
i wanna go his kenduri. .
but. . i cant bear to c ARWAH FOR DE LAST TIME. .
AM I BEING SO JAHAT??
i'm sorie. .

marilah sama2 kita sedekah SURAH AL-FATEHA
DAN SURAH AL-IKHLAS. . .
SEMOGA ALLAH MENCUCURI
RAHMAT KE ATAS ROHNYA - AMIN

life is short. .
and death can happen anywhere anytime. .
pemergian arwah sedikit sebanyak
make a lil-impact to me. .
whatever it is. .
life still have to goes on. .

before i slip any wishes from ma mind. .

i like to wish ma 2 gd-fren. .
TITI`KETOT & NASTY
HAPPY 20TH B'DAY FOR BOTH OF U. .
may god bless u in everythin - AMIN. .

TITI REALLY SORI FOR GANGGU KO TADI
WITH MA WISHED SMS HEHE

NASTY HOPE U LIKE DE PREZZY AITE. . .

and BTW i've opened my account @ myspace. .
do add me ritzmillenia@Hotmail.com okhaiz. .

reply to all taggies

nanachca : haha terpaksa curi ar
nak tunggu owner dia send
hmm sampai raya pun tk send2 keke:D

inabaybe : ekeke dah tukar lagu ar deq keke

kay : kau tkmo mepek. ..
btw if ko baca blog kau ko
mesti tau sape kol...:d

moz : k ko mcm minta sedekah rabak xiaa..
hehehe yeah rambut ku akan berstyle2
nak join sekaki hehe??

titi : u stay pweety toO!! and get well soon

alawiyah : yup remembered u!!
will link u soon k babe

baby syg im sorie...tat i blog about arwah. .
i missh u afad!!

THE END

2006-07-20T09:14:00.000+08:00

EDITED WITH DARK GREEN

first of all i wanna wish

HAPPY 6MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO US!!

yeah!! hahaha
will be meetin afad later @ 1pm
he'll be cumin over ma crib. .
kewl. . spendin time with ma nephew too
haha today i've to baby sit REZZ PLAYBOI la. .
so nk kuar pun sikit pe leceh. .

though of makin ma blog private ar. .
so wat do u guyz think??
haix. . .
sumone been stealin ma bandwith xiia. .
pathethic kan. . !!
but nvm. .adat ar cyber. .
so tats ok. .
wakakaka
c i'm being so kind-hearted wakakka. .

well yesterday watched movies @ causewaypoint
with momsie, oldman & mirahgrebo. .
PIRATE OF CARRIEBIEN
(k aku spell salah tahu tk yah tegur)
yahh FOR 2x!!
nearly fell asleep xiia smlm. . .
dgn aircon yg sejuk nk mampus
sampai aku dpt flu till now hahahaha. . .

btw old man bought me sumthin tat i've been
cravin on since 2004
yeah. . LAIN DAN TK BUKAN
PHILIPS SALON GEOMETRICKS 10IN1

hahaha. . .
at first surveyin ma new set of bedroom
but. . they changed thier mind xiia. .
nevermind can wait for afad hahahaha
then i saw the 'philips' ar haha. .
den old man asked " nak ke??"
terus aku grab g cashier hahahahaa

then maybe ma family goin to hired
a maid middle next yr. . yeah!!
but i've to work lor. .
so any lubang??
i really need to work . . .sey. .
next month goin to BBDC. .
finnaly made up ma mind. . hehee

k lets reply to de taggies k. .

zinana : u missh me? den we kuar lah hehe

mastika :kau suka aku? abis tunang kau nk letak mana
hehe

fida : dah tkmo marah2. . . hehehe

titi`vok : k dah tengok darlz. .

moz : kay memang nak tagak je dia. .
mesti blog aku ni bnyk censored
maklum belum 21 kekeke

eda :u take care too sweet . . lovin it!!

fiona : aku dah update bengap kekeke

ira`spydey : hehe awak!!!

ct : u de 2nd person wished me sey
touchin u know . . thanx darlz!!

titi`vok : banyak2 tima kasih lo kelana wish wa on wa pe
6mnth anni hehe. . wa lu yg ke tiga ..keke

2006-07-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

im so pissed
tired
mood swing
pms
headache!!

had lontong goreng twice
pat rumah afad. .
and aku start lapar balik
decided to take away LJS combo meal
but hmm nvm
doesnt really want to talk abt it. .
so i told afad im goin hm
he insist of sendin me back
but im bloody stubborn
( is tat de spellin. . im suck @ spelliN so pardon me)
of not wantin him to send hm. .

walked back ma crib alone!!
and it bloody tired and kelaparan!
thought of buyin sumthin @ mobil
but nah. .
for sure momsie will be cookin dinner
but fat hope
as i reached hm!!
sighin there were no food left. . .

k i'll be dyin of hunger any time now. .
k bullshit
is givin in a hard things to do??
not for me. . .
never mind. .
i juz pissed tats all. .

k folks gtg. . .
nasty!! i've bought ya prezzy
hope u like it hehehe!! . . . .adioz :(

2006-07-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

to zinana : hehe i've save de tag dlm folder
nak tengok gakz... i dah upload for u sweetie
aku suka tetek mu gakz!! much more nicer weweeei

to kay : alah ngada2 tkde duit menyampah!!

change de song to sumthin
tat really speacial to me hehe :D
yesterday went expo with ma mOMsie & de gang
to support our local artist
and de artist is a he
and only at his teenage
dasyat erk. . and de voice oklah power
he's so chandi. . haha

he's a composer
he's a writer
and he's a singer
package 3 in one. .
dah mcm imran ajmain xiia. . .

anyway best of luck for HIm
- - -DINIE DURRANIE - - -
btw lagu blog ku ni is his song
hehe :D

k i betta stop tokin abt it hehe
lets post pix aite. . .

org gila mana ambik gmbr blur lain dah tk buka ma old man

Hana Qistina,ma darling daughter

DeE & her darling daughter NANA

DeE & MomSie, nana abg sdara ku dukung pun in frame sibuk keke

ma old man giler ambik gmbr ku baru wakey2 dlm bus keke

=====the end====

will be meetin afad later on. .yeah!!
oh god ma stomach cramp stupid PMS. .
anyway i wanna upload video. .but dunno how
anyone who's kind-hearted care to teach me. . ??
pls. . jgn lokek2 ar kan dosa hehe :D

adioz

2006-07-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

edited with light blue

afad will be workin tomorow
and oni be back on Monday morning. .
so can oni meet him on 17.07.06 lor
hehehe mesti nk kena jumpa
dun care hahahaha

we went to LOT 1 surveyed nasty prezzy
we tu afad & me lah aiyah. .
it was ard 8.15pm. . .
caught ma eyes 0n sumthin tat's damn gorgeous
afad was like askin me to think twice
of buyin tat thing. .
Lil afraid it wont be nasty's liking
and kinda true keke ;D
but i noe yanti will grow to love it hehehe
so yanti prezzy still on hold
ma top on hold

but like @ last i got to buy ma MAKE-UP
nak tahu..
for nearly 3wks +
been goin out w/o make up juz eyeliner
perit dok. .
nasib baik afad tk cerewet,
and he told me he even like me
with natural look awww so sweet
thanx for de compliment syg kekeke
like i said. .
LOTS of gd compliment will always
make ma love grow even more :D

afad cuci gmbr @ kodak. .
den we went popular
bought album haha
nak mesmerized lah. .
bikin fa[d]ee photo album
touchin kan hehe
syg u , thanx for de treat hehe

well 4 days to go,
mark our half-a-year relationship
im glad we can make it this far
and will work this relationship till eternity
aww im being so sweet again. . .
k gtg, rasa so mengantuk
hehee
will end this entry by replyin all de taggies....

ira`spydey : u love this song too?? kewl..
suka karaoke?? best!! one day karaoke sama2 k

fiona : kau sentiasa feeling2 babe..

kit : main pic cute?? thanx syg...

chicka : kenangan ape sey darlz keke :D

moz : k kita de vouge vougest amacian ok?? hahahaha

kay : aku rindu kau bila nk jumpa!! tagak yok!!

zinana : hey bala keke :D
bley view lah keep on refresh ahah

ellete* : i love ya eyebrow dun care!!

-=valentina=- : hehe urs nice too sayang

ct : tkpe smua org bz babe..janji u still visit ma blog k darlingkuz

titi_vok : naughty girl lor. . abis nak naughty boi??
hehe i dunno abt de management ar syg..tu 1st time jejak orchard tower
wont jejak agik keke ade one negro nak approach me step i pelacur je
nasib baik afad ade hahaha

nana` sky : aku baik ko amaciam, aku dah update aru
kau nak tag, terpaksa edit alik hehe :D

k end bye smua
mimpi yg terindah k mimpi dee skali
pls pls....adioz..

2006-07-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

juz wakey from ma 7hr of sleepin
can feel ma legs are achin so badly
well its all becoz afad
broke his promise abt pamperin me yesterday
hmmph!!

never mind i dun need to be x-tra pampered
coz i've been pampered enuf by ma momsie
kekek :D
yesterday met afad, stella & her "guyfren"
bnyklah kau nye guyfren. . .
we took 190 and alighted @ far east plaza
den we went our seperated ways. .

afad decided to buy de tickets first
since im so called-forcin-him-to-watch keke
after we bought de 6.45pm show @ LIDO
we decided to go jalan2 and
find ma sexy top 1st
hahaha
but i'm being so mengada & lapar
so we stop & had our lunch
@ LJS-cinieliesure. . .

we go jalan @ fareast....
tengok2 takde. . .
we decided to c de sale @ mango beside lido
hmmm also tkde. .
den force afad to walkback to wisma. .
keke :D tkde jugak. .
wen taka den go heeren. . .
hmm disappointed. . .

saw de time it was 6.15pm keke
afad wanted to proceed lido. .
but
im still being so mengada wanted
to go cinieliesure
wakakaakka :D
no sexy top for me there. .
hampa xiiia. ..

so headed back LIDO
watched PIRATE OF CARRIBEAN - dead man's chest
the show was 2hr + and it was like a lil bit kelakar
of course co-star ma syg!! JOHNNY DEPP hahaha :D
afad tk mo marah k, dia dah syg i dulu hahahahaha
u ade tu brianna pe kekeke. . .
ma knee cramp in de middle of de show
TU LAH SAPE SURUH PAKAI SKIRT PENDEK
hahahahaha
being so like baby asked afad to urut
wah dia urut mcm muka dia. . picit pun tk
ade dia tenyeh2, ingat tepung ke....
de show ended ard 9.20pm
apapepun i still preffered the first one
THE CURSED OF DE BLACK PEARL hehe k lame

den crazy called asked to meethim @ topshop
crazy pun sampai, b'day boy smart ma mat haha
pasang tatoo lagik masyalllah wakaka but nice
afad & me being so romantic couple
attract crazy's attention kekke
nasib baik tk kena coloured xiaaaa
den syafi chulo & salim came
salim dah mcm abg2 dangdut wakakaka

den it was ard 10.30pm
dey decided to masuk indochine
and i was like oH OH. .
i forgot to bring ma ic
how stupid i can be. .
de funny part is everyone masuk kena chop & scan
but de 5+1 of us masuk saje2 tk kena check
salim bought me a coke. . .haha k tk minum
they bought 3 jugs. . and 2 of it must be vodka
pasal afad tk minum ..member kalah putih!!
step tknk minum je tu budak. . at last kena psycho
minum gak . . .
den zahid @ faizuli came...
from 10.30pm till 12midn mendak gila
all de way lagu hindi+techno wakaka and kat dlm
smua all de menggali. .
and de smell started to fills de air
and aku pun suffocate till nak muntah. .
tiba2 diorg pun angkat kaki jalan. .
den dalam hati SELAMAT

proceed naughty @ orchard tower
salim being so baik nak jamin aku ar. .
skali wen reached there. .
cnb 3 org dah pat dlm. .
salim tried to persuade the bouncer
but failed. .
and i was like; its ok for me. .
biar tk masuk jadi tk kena angkut alik keke
so afad & me decided to went hm
but changed our mind . .
and we slacked @ marina promenade. .
till 2.45am. ..
took cab reached ma crib
@ 03.15am. . talked to afad
hanged up @ 4am. . .gedebap terus hilang. .
lala land mari kekeke

today tot of goin bugis
to find ma tops & nasty prezzie
skali im stuck with ma baby-sittin schedule
keke sowie syg. .
BUT STILL I WANT TAT TOP haha
why not u buy for me and pls erk. .
ma size is not XS
either S or M but betta buy ME M. .
u know i know k afad!!

moral of de story
yesterday outin was fun!!
love ya baby..u're de best!!!

tanx for taggin
keep taggin aite. . .
nanti2 senang2 dee reply k. .
gtg adioz. .

2006-07-13T15:55:00.000+08:00

as far as im concern
i dun really need any sacarstic remark
from u haterz out there. . .
but. .
ur remarks some how some where
did gave me
an advice not to give up
wen being ditched
so thanx. . haha

well im done with de new skin
same theme haha
but betta den de old one i guess
i preffered this one maybe becoz of de pix
hahaa k angkat bakul sendiri :D
the song was requested by ma beloved baby AFAD
ma fav song to be exact :D

guyz i've deleted all the shout
@ ma tag-board purposely. . .
but. . . !!!
i've got reason behind it. . .
so let it be mystery and c de game
tat sumone have played. .

who's tat sumone. .
he/she is an unknown stupid idiotic bloghopper
aka passerby

if u think u wanna mess with me
bring ya arse to reality
coz cyber game will never be ma style. . .
provokin me online only shows
people how childish u can be. .
and u've been goin ard
and tagged crap. .
and wat do u mean by " bebual world"
if u didnt always update abot ma life stop actin
like as if u are

i've close ma frenster account!!
i've ended ma msn life toO!!

this precious blog will be closin down
onLy if i've found sumthin tat comfy for me
to write. .
so next time stop being a dust in ma tag-board

nad sorie sayang aku terdelete kau pe tag
aku dah check kau pe blog. .
hehe org baru erk..hehe :D. . .
but i noe and u noe tat farook still de best. . .

to some of ma bloggermate
tat i've tag u guyz to see ma blog
sorie sayang2 ku,
dee delete ar and have
save under archive
hehehe :D

between me and ma baby afad. . .
we've been goin on pretty pretty well
awesome is de best words to describe us. .
he being more n more romantic aka tebiat. .
i juz love him more n more haha. .
tomorrow is his off day
and we'll be goin out to catch movies
yeah!!
PIRATE OF DE CARRIBEAN yeahness!!
mlm will be meetin b'day boy aka crazy
and all de GD ahaha :D

he promised me tat he goin to pampered me
he gonna buy me a sexy top yeah!! haha
bestnya haha :D. . . .

k tats all guyz. . missh u muaxx

2006-07-07T15:44:00.000+08:00

aku sendiri terperanjat yang
now im still infront
of ma bloody computer
typing out ma 2nd entry of de day. . .
k decided to change ma blog song
from ayie&berd to ma all-time-fave-metal
i feel so fucked uP!!
baby sorie ni dah
tkde kena mengena dgn kita
hahaha =)

aku tk tengking kau kata aku tengkinG!!
lain kali tk tahu pakai hP!
tanya!!
go n lower down de fucking volume
like suars xiaaa. . .
for u all fuckers out there punya info
aku pe org tk tahu bebual pelan!!
tats juz so not bloody me!!

im de person who talk very loud!!
but in a nicer way lah xial!!
juz dunno how to lower down de volume
why cant u juz fucker accept it
stuppid horsefucker!!

been msgin afad juz now
gettin bored dunnow wat to do
been recievin unknown calls @ hm
tellin me info abt afad
wat the fuck are u guyz tryin to do..
tellin me stuff abt his past
which i never been exist!!
wahlau and one thing. .
i juz realise why the fuck am i tokin to dem nicely
and forgot to ask abt who de fuck is dem actually
aiyyah. . .

s'pore is so damn farkin smalL!!
no wonder dey got ma fuckin no.
but wait a sec
i dun even had a big-circle of fren
who knew ma cribs no.!
PLS FUCKIN FUCKER owned up!!
who's de fucker who spread ma crib no.!!
like fuck xiaa. . . .

now a days people
love finding fault with me. .
de house damn clean but still
provokin me. .
am i a doll..
hell u guyz fuckin noe!!
i aint a fuckin doll. .
i got feelings. .
but why must i fuckin telan everythin . . .

so this is de place which i fuckin
expressed maself. . .
but still some peepz get fuckin offended. . .
i dun lead a gd life. .
i aint a FUCKIN pretender!!
coz baby dislike fuckin pretender!!
haha tat's why he chose me to be his
SWEETHEART...haha so fuckin touchin
but there's always some peepz
who always make ma day awesome
one of dem is ma baby lor afad!!

wethere i shud repent or not
is not ya farkin problem
dun tell me wat to say or to do
and afad i dun fuckin control ya life
sorie if ma fuckin words hurt u
coz ya fuckin word have hurt me badly toO
heheh :D fair?? yeap!!
k we being so step-tkde-pape-maki2 haha

wakakaka k actually i decided to change ma blog skin
but i need a software to do it. .
been waitin for afad cd
aiyah like buah nak jatuh dia tersangkut xiaaa
baby besok!! we mit k!!
we go jln2 cari pasangan oops..salah. .
hehe nah. .
we juz spend our time togetha2. .
some peepz are so jealous of us!!
stupid of dem. .
hey fucker. .
if u're jealous
of us being so happily devotedly togetha
go n find yaself a fuckin fucker
and fuckkin fuck dem!!
sucker!!. . ..

k im gettin so jahat mulut. .
coz aku tgh bingit gila. .
so fuck is de only way to express ma anger haha
k im a lame fucker
so wat!!
fuck off from ma farkin blog
u haterz fucker!!. .
k gtg fucker. .
bye hahaha

2006-07-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

there will be a important msg
i slot in this entry
so pls do understand and
stick it to ya brain aite
hehehe

lets reply to de taggies

Nad : kau nk club 2getha? ask ya faroOk 1st

ira`spidey : harlOooo belO!nak go drnk sama2?
ok gak..tk kisah...hehehe :D

Nasty : aku pun tk tahu bila nk jumpa
saturday ni ar jumpa kau ley ambik duit tu

Ninibaybe : ya sure will link u up soOn aite darlz

fiona : aku dah update lah XiiiialLLLL

Moz : aku pun tk tahu bila nk meet :D

d*skampung : hahah anjat gegerl kau pun ade haha

Lisa : gelek ar lisa gelek jgn tk gelek kekeke

Naqq : thanx for likin ma eyes..come back again aite

titi : si pemalas nak update suruh boifey dia update
dtg blog aku ar wakakaku toO tkc aite...=)

*first of all
i wanna really thanx u guyz for makin frens with me
nice knowing ya guyz out there. . .
i wont be online in msn anymore
have deleted all ma contacts . . .
and i've canceled ma friendster account. .
will only stick to bLOG untill
i'v found a cute-sweet-comfy book
den i wll close it down. . . .

dont ask me why. .
coz the reason is
kinda-like-persona-issue-involve . . .
im doin this for ma Fa[d]eE happiness
i may sound very lame. .
but i've de right to be happy kan kan kan. . .
plz do give me ur support . . .
if u guyz wanna contact me . . .
u can juz flood or leave msg @ ma shoutbox
to those who had ma NO.
u guyz can always sms me. .
but dun expect me to reply lah kekek
belum top up ar geng. . . =)
if dah topup aku bilang otey setet!

as for today. . .
i dunch really know wat to do
usually i will log on ma msn. . .
chattin with some radio peepz
den check ma frenster to approve
testimonial/frenz request. .
but now. . . can only get to blog
nvm i dun really regret doin all this. . =).

wat i know one fine day
surely i've to move on
and out from cyber life
so why not i do it now. . .
i feel so hard and difficult to do all this
it beens 4 yrs im attached with cyber life
den out of sudden i've to deleted all this
from ma life. .
aiyyah. .
but it's ok. .
at de least i've showed
someone how deeps
is MA LOVE
towards ma AFAD aka ma BABY

yesterday got to meet afad
we headed west coast park
one of ma fav-places to go
ahahaha
we sit near de play-ground
afad was tired. .
i noe. .
im sorie baby. . .
we had our heart to heart talk
for dunno how many times. .
he said he doesnt really know why
im de only gf tat he really care abt. .
deep inside me was like THANX GOD
gd comparison between me and his ex
k step tak jealous je aku haha
hahaha...
den he looked into ma eyes. .
and said " dear i sayangkan u tau"
i got goosebump sia. . . .
although it was just a phrase which i always
hear almost everyday but last nite was
totally different. . he made me
puttin a big sweet smila again!!

den ard 2200hrs
we decided to balik. . .
took 176
alighted @ b.panjang
he hugged me. .
sampai b.panjang. . wakakaka
and nak mp3 aku
pandai buat muka kesian jotos kang
baby u lebih baik jaga ma mp3
yg dah nak mampus tu
kekeke :D

he held ma hand so tight
all the way back ma crib
i love u baby!!

and today i cant get to meet him
coz he got duty. .
and he will only be hm by tomorow morning
this things will be goin on untill
his ORD xiia
nvm. . .
nasib baiik b'day aku dia tk kena duty
hahaha
ok pe...kerje satu hari cuti 2 hari
i liOoooke. . .

i tot of gettin a job haha
anyone tgh job hunting..
we go togetha2 ar. . .hahaha
k aku mcm paham. . .

sumtimes if we dont really close
with a person
dun acted like as if we are. . .
hated it. .
dun be such a sore loser
tellin everyone
tat u're fuckin close to me aite. . .

and btw this song hmm
maybe dah basi untuk korg smua
but not for me
there's a meaning behind it. . .

baby onli u and me know haiz. .
you've to be strong aite syg. . .
i will always be with u. .
fa[d]ee's love will last forever

juz nak share with korg smua. . .
tak semstinya jade odoh kat luar aje
jodoh ade di mana2
etc. . us aka fa[d]ee. .
met each other thru ANAKMELAYU.COM
haha funny rite aiyah. .
laugh lah. .
he's de type of man tat i've been searchin
wakakak k afad baca cnfrim tersengih2
ahah mcm kera wakaka :S
syg u baby!!. .
like i always said U're DE BEST HUNZZ

im gonna missh chattin with u guyz
especially ma bloggermates!!
so pls lah update slalu korg pe blog
yg berabuk tu so at de least aku ade gak
benda nak buat ,,baca korg pe entry hahaha :D

i think tats all for now
nak msg afad. . windu dia. .
nak mandi nak habiskan keje umah
den nk tido ahahaha :D

dun even think
of breakin us apart
hahaha :D
u will only be in pain. .
sucker!

2006-07-05T17:49:00.000+08:00

2nd entry of de day

this song i dedicate to ma afad
hahaha
juz to make ma day ar xia
i cant get to meet him
coz sumthin cropped up at hm
dun wish to elaborate
sowie baby really missh u. . .

sux anyway. .
well i feel like killin a person
but wen i think abt sumone
i feel so disappointed in me. . .

why does one so difficult to believe de truth
but so easy to believe de lies. . .
sighin. . .

life is bloody unfair indeed. . .
but wat i noe. .
i cant blame fate. . .
coz im de one who lead ma life
de way i want it to be
im de one who commit de sin
and do de good deed
so karma will always go ard to find it victim..
and make him/her life damn agony
retribution aka pay back is definetly sweet
juz wait for ma turn. .
i want de person to suffer but am i tat evil enufF??

i cried. .
and i always cried. . .
but wat can i do. .
i simply cant erase everythin tat've happened. . .

people said dun rack de past
it sure hurt u even more
but those things happened
doesnt even have valid reason. . .
haiz. . .

perhaps
its ma fault and mistake leads
to de anger tat occured
why must i take all de blame??
things've happened for years
and yet feels like juz happened few days back
sighin. .
am i too weak nah??

wen i said im a low-self esteem gurl
afad so mad
and told me
if im a low-self esteem fo sure
i ended up in IMH
and hell yeah watever ma baby said is true. . .

he's de reason tat
im still live ma life to de fullest
baby syg
i really wanna make u mine all the time
and believe this isn't a lie. . .
may god bless our love & relationship
like the way HE SHUD. . .

15 more days to go . .
we goin to be 1 mnth older. .
isnt it great. .
even till now we cant believe our own eyes
tat we can be this far. .

is this true love. .
hell we dun even know, we still judge. .
OUR true color yet startin to be seen. .
but de understandin in us made us
look more mature
handlin any obstacle tat will come. .

actually im bloggin in anger
darn it!!
if u feel offended go and masturbate ya dog or cat
xiaaaaa

leave me alone. .
in peace

cool
thanx ya . . .. damn . .
well abt cyber shit. .
if u guyz saw or caught me tokin to other guy
like so lovingly or vice versa ...
it juz a cyber shit. .
cyber bully cyber emo
like sumone told me cyber sux..
but tat's cyber life. .
sux ke tk sux
we love it right. .
i'll never bring reailty to cyber or de other way round
it juz doesnt seems so right. .

so dun ever judge people thru readin blog or juz chattin...
coz u dun even farkin noe de real dem. .
wat i wanna say
DUN EVEN DARE TO BLOODY JUDGE ME. . .

love makin frens
but enemy will come in between. .
cant seem to avoid tat sia. .
well tat's life

kata baby'sweetie SML
sabar mau lebih. .

k now aku tgh wait for afad's call. . .
haiz. . b i missh u so much sia. .
fark all de prob sia i,m facin. .
u're always de best bf !!
sayang. . u words really cant describe ma feelin
right now. .

2006-07-05T12:34:00.000+08:00

this blog gettin on ma nerve
aku dah update panjang2 den kan!!!!!!!!!
hilang!!!
bodoh
refresh2 bnyk kali pun tkde!!

so de biatch erk kau blog
jgn buat gini ar kesian aku. . .

k aku malas nak reply taggies. . .

so aku nak update kxxxxxxxxxxiaaaaaaaaaal
haha yg minta link wait aku link korg okhaiz . ... . . .

like at last!! aku nk blog
well mood ok blog lor. .
so i decided to update oni abt yesterday
tat was on 04.07.06

got to meet afad yeahness for me!!
missh him!!
really slalu hari2 meet den skali
2 hari tk jumpa kelam kabut aku!! hahahaha
k bedek

accompanied him to hair salon
member sibuk nak gunting rambut
ambik kau!!
rambu masyallah
hahaha malas nak elaborate
he look so bdk2 tadika . . .
and padan muka tknk tanya aku dulu
kan jadi kelakar . . .

after dah cut-cut hair. .
we took mrt alighted @ orchard
and it was ard 1940hrs
decided to badok 1st
al maklum aku dgn afad lum makan dari pagi
we got gaduh2 sikit ar. . .
pasal aku nak jalan den member nak badok

hahaha
tapi aku paksa dia jln jugak!!!
aku nak survey2 prezzie nasty siooot
sumthing caught ma eyes but tk ley buy!!
afad ar!!
dia ckp wait after he gaji padahal dah ade duit
k malas nak ckp!!!
sakit hati. . .

so we had our dinner at BK's FAR EAST plaza
we're so damn full
thanx to afad aku malas nak jalan!!
hahaha :D
hopefully next time aku dtg tu kedai
benda tu masih ade!!!
it was so gorgeous u noe!!

den tot nak balik waited for 190
asyik ribut sia. . .
so aku dgn kemanjaan aku
dpt pujuk afad naik mrt
hahah
den member ckp puas hati jgn balik
nak jln sangt kan g marina promenade ar
so i heed his word. .

took mrt alighted at city hall
of course lah city hall tkkn marina bay kan
sape nak gi swim siot!!
bought our drinks
and

we chilled betul sbalah2 bridge
angin dia ,.....
sungguh nyaman. .
we talked abt our past which we supposed not to
it was damn bloody awesome
get to make fun of him haha
teasin him. .
den he asked me to rest pat his lap
so touchin sia. . .
he played with ma hair. .
awww so shhhweeeet . .. . .
den tanpa kita sedar
dah pukul 0010hrs hahaha

we decided to balik
walked hand in hand. . .
took cab,
he sent me off 1st. .
reached ma crib ard 0045hrs

haha and this is de part yg mcm soyal
aku kena locked pat luar
tulah degil gila tknk buat kunci
hahaha
for at 15mins siot kena locked!!
den ma old man tiba2 bukak pintu
naik penat jari aku picit tu doorbell
bunyi lembik gila. .
sape nak g bangun kan
hahaha

tok to afad for abt 10mins. . .
den both of us lincah2 g la-la land

im so deeply in love with afad. .
he's de bestest bf
i cud ever ask for. . .
de patience, sincerety
and honesty in him
makes me want him even more. . .

wel skrg ni
tgh wait for afad msg
i wanna meet him dun care!!
hahaha. . .
i betta go mandi 1st keke
aiyah ma old man dah balik
sibuk je,. . .memekak dah mcm momsie sia. . .

gtg guyz. .
till we meet lagik . .

2006-06-30T11:10:00.000+08:00

aiya this stupid survey makes me sick sia
nadd kau sungguh kejam!!!

Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.
At the end of this, choose five people to do this.

1* nasty
2* afad
3* kay
4* amoy
5* titi
6* pinkie
7* stella
8* juliah
9* chanel
10* lady j
11* nana sky
12* titi vok`
13* baby` sweetie
14* siti mazwati
15* fendi
16* linda
17* nia
18* imah
19* ct
20* suriati

How did you meet #14 (siti mazwati) ?

thru ma ex back 2003. . .

What would you do if you didn't meet #1 (nasty)?

i will never anyone more crazier mulut sbrg like her =D

What if #9 (chanel) and #20 (suriati) dated ?

oh ma gosh it will be a disaster unless both of dem a lesbo

Would #6 (pinkie) and #17 (nia) make a good couple ?

this survey makes me wanna vomite..of course not!!
nia engaged to ma bro!! stupid. . .

Describe #3 (kay)

she's cute. . she's so boopsie. . nice voice
a gd companion. . .tok alot of crap!!. .
reside far away from me

Is #8 (juliah)_ attractive ?

yeah of course if not
why de hell she married to ma big bro
and had 4 children ..so de gundu

Describe #7 (stella) ?

she's petite, look like me. . .aka ma twin
she's still skoolin. . and she's attched to KUCHAI

Do you know any of #12 (titi`vok) family member?

haha nO!! never met aiyo. .
this survey drives me insane xiaa

What would you do if #18 (imah) confess to u tat he likes u?

firstly, imah is a GURL!! so she must be she okhaiz
secondly if happen she's like me
fahmi goin to kill me hahaha

What language does #15 (fendi) speak ?

hmm malay & english. . btw dis fendi is a butch
kekeke

Who is #9 (chanel) going out with?

IJUD!!

How old is #16 (linda) ?

29

When is the last time you spoke to #13 (b`sweetie) ?

wat do u mean by spoke?? never tok to her at all
msn oni. . cant remember wen hehe :D
b!!!

Who is #2's (afad) favourite band/singer?

me!! he loves ma voice
wakaka dee perasan hahaha

Would you ever date #4 (amoy)?

yeah!! she's fun

Would you ever date #1 (nasty)?

like of course lah. . i lurb her wish
her stay nearby ma crib wakakaka

Is #15 (fendi) single ?

shud be dunno lah kaypo erk!!

Is #19 (ct) your good friend?

yeap!! ma gd bloggermate ct syG!!

What's #10's (lady j) last name?

haha j ape erk..aku tak tahu ar

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (nana sky)?

hahaha dis survey is so lesbo siak!!!
hell no!!

School of #3 (kay)??

temasek poly

Where does #6 (pinke) live ?

woodland

What's your fave thing about #5 (titi) ?

her voice!! and her height oops keke

Have you seen #2 (afad) naked before ??

yeah hahaha

The Five People I'm gonna tag

* nana sky
* nasty
* kay
* baby`sweetie
* zinana

==================================

revenge is sweet duncha think?? hahaha

last nite wacthed SUPERMAN
with afad's family
mcm reunion sia. .
becoz ami's gf imah tagged along
de show started ard 8pm
and we was late a few mins
keke de show end ard 10.30pm haha
i dun really understand de story line
fun to laugh je hahaha

den we waited afad's old man
@ lau pa sat
why?? he had to do JOB at airport
so we
ate satay, honeyed barbeque chicken wing
and prawn!!
future-father-in-law reached lau pa sat
ard 11.45pm
den sent imah hm followed by me
reached ma crib ard 12.30am

haha love de outin . . . muax baby. .
he'll be meetin me later. .
btw aku nak ngadu sikit
tekak ku makin sakit rabat
nak telan air ludah sikit pe susah. .
den ma phlegm all got blood but wen check temperature
baru 37.5 sey haix. . .

k tats all. . end it here..

2006-06-28T16:45:00.000+08:00

k tu smua tagiies tanx erk
aku penat ar nak type out
sedikit influence from MIMI CARAMEL
sebab dia ckp tag-board dia dah buat bodoh
keke terus aku tak jadi nak reply . . .
aku reply certain tag aje k
if yang tk reply tu jangan marah k cowiiiie

to
nadd aka one of ma postive bloggermate thinker
thanx for ya advice syg
i'm so touched tat u always concern about me
although kita tak pernah jumpa. . .

to lisa
ya aku memang nak jumpa
cuma waktu ar aiya..
maklum busy woman kekeke

to fida
ape tetek2!!
pepek betul hehehe
buat jugak kau survey bodoh tu kan hehe
syg kau!!

to valentina
ya u too stay hawtee!!
lurp sama lu.!

to titi`vok
bila mau mit up..minum??
kekek :D

to zalikha
will link u up soon aite~~

to nana` sky
dah aku dah alik mersinG!!!!
yeahnes!!!
hahahahah

to baby s***y
kekek nah i curl temporarily je
nice?? den u shud curl ya hair too tau heheh

to titi-belle
wakakaka helo helo ingat tepon ke
oh tk buat survey kan pandai erk
suruh bf yg update blog rabak nye darlin~~

to nasty
AKU RINDU KAU GAK!!!

======= FIN =======

typing out this entry
while afad watchin tv pat luar
yup dia at ma crib!!

between me n him dah ok
and akan sentiasa ok. . .
cuma adat berkasih
mesti ade ups n down. . .
i aint a perfectionist
and we peeps always prone
to make mistake. . .i did
heheh :D. . .
about ma last entry ade sikit
campur abt sumthin yang onie
certain people je tau

i wont wanna blog abt it again
promised maself and promised afad
heheh

afad being a
jealousy-romantic guy tadi
why??
dia masuk aku pe msn
and delete some of ma guy contacts
haha and change ma nick
from
DEe MidiOSa to Fa[d]eE always
i feel so touchin-touchin sia
love ya baby
cant resist ya hug&kisses tadi. . . .
u make me so cair meleleh haha. . .

22 more days to our 6month together
hahah yeah aku kira. . .
to de informer
if u happen to read ma blog
u can c for yaself how afad so madly in love with me
breakin us apart oni waste ya bloody time
de only things tat can seperate us
IS DEATH. . . .

k im being so baik
to share some pix from mersing
keke
happy tengok aite

AHAH AKU SYG FADLI
FADLI SYG AKU
KORG JEALOUS
tak jealous diam2 sudah ar hehehe

2006-06-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

sorie guyz
aku tk reply tag. .

bloggin @ afad's crib
while waitin for de clock to strike 9.45pm
its been 4 days
tat i didnt update dis blog of mine
so i juz summarize wat telah happen
owite. . .

on sunday
went MERSINg with afad's FAMILY,
bdk2 rev & 1st ave
reached his crib ard 08.15am
bertolak ard dunno wat time. . . .
jalan 2nd link
meet de rest at esso
terus bertolak
reached MERSING dunno wat time
makan den mandi2
of course aku tak mandi. . .
tk bawa baju spare . . .
nasib baik ar if tak dah kena humban pat laut
kesian si nasty's bala wakakaka
kena grind kat kayu wakakak
den ard kul bape ntah gerak balik
wat i knew
reached s'pore ard 2300hrs. . .

sighin. . .

now im crying like no one business
even afad's bz playin X-box
aiman aka adeq de one i baby sit. . .
still in LA-LA land. . .
ami watchin dvd
afad's parent out to dunno mana
haix. . . .

im sick and hurt . . .
i wont want to tolerate anyone again
kenapa kesidahan harus ku telan???
kenapa??

do i've right for all this??
HELL YEAH
but why i always being treated unfairly. . .
why???
will people ard look down on me
if i always stood silence wen being ditched??
HELL it must be YES

i didnt have any intention to raise ma farkin voice
but u raise ya voice back juz to
ask me to lower down ma voice!!!

why cant u raise ya voice
at tat bitch the way
u raised ya bloody voice at me??

why must u like so mad at me
wen im being so naive??

why u cant vent
and show ya anger to tat bitch???!!!

is there still love or u juz cant be bother??

why it always me who makes mistake
and peepz get offended by it???

why must i admit
TO all de shit tat i never MAKE

why???

its all becoz
IM TOO STUPID
AND
PEOPLES LOVE STEPPIN ON MA HEAD. . .

and sumone did. . .
i didnt even know if i've to cry or not
but im cryin like hell!!!!!!!!

arghhh why am i being so emotional
its becoz tats de way i'm
why cant de person accept me
de way i'm!!
de person tat i love most!!

is de love being showered sincerely like i felt??
is this for real??

i wont want to beg at a person leg
juz to stop provokin me. .

bringin it on. . . .
aku memang nampak cute
but tat doesnt mean
kau ley langgar wire aku anytime u want. .

i'm really tired. . .
yeah im being so stuppidd too!!
for askin tat Q.
but still i didnt not need de turth!!
it does hurt. .

why cant u make me
like as if im de 1st gurl u've
been in love!!!!!!!!!!

i think i juz stop here. . .
i wont wanna to prolong this matter. . .
it juz hurt. .

btw dis is ma farkin blog
if u wanna talk shit
fuck at ma farkin face
not behind ma back
sickening moron. .

2006-06-23T14:28:00.000+08:00

re-edited in red with CAPS

JUZ RECIEVED NEWS FROM MA OLD MAN
TAT MA CUZIN IRFAN AKA AL FROM
HOLLAN V sTARBUCK
BEING ATTACKED BY A GROUP OF IDIOTIC MATREP
HE'S NOW WARDED IN NUH
ANYONE WHO KNOWS HIM N NEED SOME INFO
HOLA ME AT MSN. . .

===================

to all taggies sorie i will onie reply @
next entry coz i'm really not in de mood...

im down with
bad cough with yelowGreenish phlegm,
sore throat, and ma temperature is 39.4
in pain, ma heart & feeling being hurt
ma pride. .
i wont want to depend on others anymore
im goin to be on ma own now. .
sorie tat i've to change ma song
this song suits ma mOOD!!
and damn..
i feel so relieved whenever i listen to it

i feel so fucked up rite now
im assumin rite now tat one of ma frens
is a informer to tat bitch
who's tat bitch..
nah i wont revealed it here..
oni some of u out there knows exactly wat im tokin about

im so stunned to know tat
this bitch bothers to find ma real name
hahaha and talk about me. .
how famous i can be. .
i dun even bother..

nasty u're right. .
but wat can i do i dun have the courage. .
but tat doesnt mean i'll not stand up for ma right
it juz not the right time
i can live with all this..with u guys around
especially baby. .

im totally mad at him
on sumthin he said to me last nite. .
but wen i think back
it's not his fault. . nvm
i wont want to be so childish or MINAH2
who always got free time to resort INTO FIGHT
oever a small things. .
tats juz not me. .

duncha worry i wont ask for any help
juz a ear listener and some advice will do. .
ya true im cryin inside. .
but i aint fakin ma smile. .

baby u're worth for me. .
never once i've doubt abt ya worthy!!
( ade ke word tu?? haha)

talk to keci[k]enit & nasty. . .
yeahness for me. .
positive thinker will always make ma day!!

im so sick. .
so frustrated. .
so pissed
so fucked up!!
but wan i will onli do
juz shut ma ears & lips!!

ma patience has de limit. . .
provoke me while u can. . .
to de informer of dat bitch. . .
im gonna haunt u down mutha farker. . .

to tat bitch STOP BEING SORE LOSER. ...!!!!!!
but if u insist of being one..
i'll let u be...

for now i wanna sleep in peace

2006-06-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY NASTY ..RINDU KO LAH JACKO

k ni nasty nye keje geram je aku
dia tak tag aku pun but aku nak buat keke
heheh :D saw ma name @ her later entry

RULES
#1. Do the followin without complaint.
#2. Choose 5 person to do this after u completed urs.
#3. Leave a tag on e person tagboard 2 say he/she've been tagged
#4. start your post with "i have been tagged" then do this.

~10 favourites
Favourite Color : red,black,white,purple,green
Favourite Food : NASI BRIYANI
Favourite Song : too many to remember
Favourite Movie : dun have
Favourite season : HUH???
Favourite Day of the week : friday & saturday
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour : coffee

~9 Currents
Current Mood : pissed off
Current taste : orange jelly
Current clothes : baju butterfly kekeke
Current toenail : henna color
Current time : 2008hrs
Current surrounding : momsie room
Current annoyance : MA BABY AFAD
Current thought : he insist of goin but i doesnt want him to go arghh

~8 Firsts
First Best Friend : NUR HIDAYAH ADNAN
First Crush : dun have
First movie : beetle juice issit counted?? kekeke
First piercing : baby
First lie : hahahaha
First Music : jerat percintaan by SITI NURHALIZA

~7 Lasts
Last Drink : coke
Last Car ride : yesterday
Last Crush : i dun have crush lah!!
Last Movie Seen : Over the edge
Last Phone Call : baby juz now hahaha
Last CD played : none

~6 Have You Evers
Have u ever dated one of ur best fren : NOPE
Have u ever broken the law : let me think...
Have u ever been arrested : NEVER
Have u ever skinny dipped : in ma dreams
Have u ever Been on TV : ahah dun think so
Have u ever Kissed sumone you didnt know.. : hahah tats juz not me

~5 things u're wearing
ma orange haiirband
ma lingeries hahahah
fa[d]ee engravement ring
gold bracelet
ma black clips

~4 things u've done today
karaoke with baby
laughin
makan-makan
watchin tv

~3 things u can hear right now
ma itunes
de idols singing on tv
mira grebo irritatin voice

~2 Things u cant Live Without
Amir fadli
ma family

~1 things you do wen u're bored
KARAOKE

and For the 5 people

1. FIDA
2. KECI[k]ENIT
3. NADD
4.TITI BELLE
5.ZINANA

at last habis jugak..
k now aku tgh msn2 dgn ma baby
hahaha...
nothing interestin to update ar hehe :D
i juz miss spendin time with baby haahahha
cant resist him ar...dee siow!!

2006-06-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

edited with pix

ni je gmbr yang aku ley share
kekek gmbr aku n ma partner mirah grebo
kekek :D

=========================================================

hey syg all got missh me tak??
wakakaka :D

k since dah 5 days tak update
let me reply to de taggies. .
and since almost de same taggers tat tag me
let me summarize dem aite. . . .

MIDIOSA TO TITI:

kekeke :D all the best
to u& ur boifey tOO darLZ...

MIDIOSA TOFIONA TAGGIES :

k kau suka benar tag aku ckp yg mepek2 geram
aje. . .dah lah ko sikit pe malas nak update
bila shoppin hidup!! aku syg kO!!
wah kelakar ke ape kau suruh aku stay m'sia
rabak siot. . !! nebermind aku dah balik s'pore
pun kekeke :D

MIDIOSA TO NANA TAGGIES :

k aku dah buat tau!! jgn suruh aku buat
agik ..sakit kepala otak aku..keke
will link u soON aite syG!!..
cb?? tu ape..!!! kekeke :D

MIDIOSA TO AMOY :

aku missh kau too ar sepet!!
ahahha :D
bila2 pun ley karaoke aku sbrg!!
hehehe

MIDIOSA TO KAY TAGGIES :

alah buat aje lah...dah buat pun kan
bodoh pe pompuan keke :D
kau pun pergi kl..sibuk sia
keke aku dah balik pun
hehe slamat pegi slamat balik darlz!!

MIDIOSA TO IRA SPIDEY TAGGIES :

hazwana whO?? ya sister tk kenal ar darlz
hehe :D yeah insya'llah satu ari we meet
k !! keke :D muaxkz...

MIDIOSA TO NANA SKY :

k bagus suka kena sabo nanti aku sabo lagik
k syg hahahah

MIDIOSA TO CT :

heheh dee noti ct noti noti!! hahahaha

MIDIOSA TO NAD TAGGIES :

hehehe :D ketok lah kepala aku syg!!
oh nak barang erk?? aku sendiri tak beli
barang kaT PS nanti kau baca lah entry aku
hehe :D

MIDIOSA TO BABY`SWEETIE :

B!! keke me missh u toO!!
dunno ar bila nak meet dah stay west
pun susah..keke end of de month??
nak??

MIDIOSA TO NASTY :

hey darlz happy 40th month togetther!!
ekekeke :D
missh kau lah belo!!

MIDIOSA TO CHICKA :

alah dah lama tk chat pun
keke u pretty2 too ar!!

MIDIOSA TO EZA DOLL :

hehe :D ingatkan eza sombong sey
keke ingatkan tk drop by ma site
hehe :D touchin kan makin
ku cinta padamu sayang heheh

MIDIOSA TO MOZ :

ayamak si moz burger ni geram aje ar
rokok takde..kau dah ade rokok hidup
pun nk rokok ke hahahah

k taggies reply sessiin end!! fast game kekek

first of all
i wud like to wish me & ma baby aka Fa[d]eE
HAPPY 5 MONTH TOGETHER
MAY WE KEKAL SLALU ( LIKE BABY MSG ME :d)
HOPE WE CAN LIVE BY EACH OTHER SIDE
EVEN AFTER 50YRS. .
LOVE EACH OTHA LOADS & LOADS. . .

last saturday tats was on 17.06.06
baby's family & moi family
went to KL!!
woHOOO. . .
but we went our seperate ways. .
baby's family went with van
and moi family with train @ 2215hrs. .

reached kl on 18.06.06
around 0745hrs. .
booked in hotel ANCASA ard 1000hrs
letak bag
capai jacket & camera
off we go to genting with CAB!!
ahha. .

as for baby he reached gentin ard 1325hrs
why?? his atuk ziarah kubur mak dia
@ dunno mana ntah. .

keep on msgin him @ indoor theme park
sebab!!
me n mirah lost our way!!
mak bapak aku kat mana kita kat mana
kelam kabut kejap. .
tiba2 we saw old man den after a few second
baby pun muncul blakang aku
hahaha :D
he saw me from atas den he ran downstairs
to meet me AWWW TOUCHIN KAN. .
even his momsie said to me
" tengok yan, si fad ni sanggup carik yan
sampai genting tak sabar2 nak jumpa "
hahah wat i can onli do is *grinns*

i didnt even try all the ride
@ outdoor theme park. .
no khakis ar . .
tkkn nk bawak anak sdara aku kan
dia kecik cnfrim most of de ride dia tk ley naik
den mak bapak aku plak..bila ajak
nak terberak lah nak pengsan ar
kelakar sey ahahah :D. .
didnt get to spend time with baby
coz baby sibuk nak gi CASINO
rabak siak mentang2 aku belum 21
tkpe2. .
so me & family proceed KL dulu!!
keke :D

reached HOTEL tak tahu wat time
aku mandi terus zZzzzZzzzz
tiba2 ma old man kejut
and passed me his HP
and wen i said " hell0 "
there was a smile on ma face
baby's at second line
he was at the lobby waitin for me
aku cuci muka tukar baju
ikat rambut terus turun. .
met him, ami & his dad @ de lobby
the rest kat luar. .

so we walked to PETALING STREET
kekeke.. .
to cut the story short. .
ma family pun turun jumpa kat sana. .
i didnt get to buy benda. .
baby bought jeans & t-shirt. .
geram je. . .
for nearly 1 hr+ kat sana. .
baby ajak pergi makan
but ma old man so paisey . . we tk go. . .

tat was the time i terus rindu babY!!
uwek . . .
pasal dia balik on sunday
me alik on monday!!!
grrrr. . .
nevermind. . . .

we didnt get to take picture sama2
walupun ami aka ma future-brotha-inlaw
insist of kita ambik gmbr
but dgn kedegilan aku TAK TERAMBIK SIAK
gambar and aku menyesal sehingga kini
kekek :D. . .

k never mind. .
on 19.06.06
moi family took the 1415hrs TRAIN
1sr class nye. .
sungguh nyaman. . .kekek :D
reached s'pore ard 2050hrs kekek

sampai rumah terus call baby!!
rindu dok. .
before aku lupa
at KL SENTRAL
i BOUGHT THIS JACKET
aku tk tahu how to describe ar
but wen i put it on I LOOK SO CUTE IN IT
kekeke :D k perasan. . .hahaha

well picture will only be upload at nite
and it will be post in dis entry juz wait k. .
hehe :D. .

btw i dyed ma hair !! haha
kekek :D
baby pun . . but dia da dyed balik
ns ma.. .kekek
tu lah kaypo keke :D . . . . .

well later baby will be cumin over ma crib
pass me all the things tat his momsie
bought for me. .
jam, slipper & bag
tanx MAMA!!! kekeke :D. . .
den we will wait for ma momsie to balik
or ma old man to balik from work. .
pasal kita nak kuar ar!!1 hahaha :D

missh him so muchhiezz. .. kekek :D

k tu je. .
aku nak mandi. . hahah
gmbr wait2 long k. . .

btw to ZANA & LISA
AKU MINTA MAAF TK DPT
MEET KORG ON TAT FRIDAY :D
SORIE.. . .

and btw aku topped up hp aku
18 bucks
now left $00.10 arfggggh

adioz..

2006-06-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

ok nasty being so bitch to ask me to do it again
rabak siot jacko. . .
geram aje..
k lets start ma entry with this thingY again
i've deleted ma last post juz becoz i've to do it again
i wont want ma blog to look BORED wakakaka
nvm. . .

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1) im taken!! stick tat to ya brain sucker
2) love to be pampered
3) love tamil movie ( cannot blame i got the blood duH!!)
4) can stick to de comp for 1 whole farkin day
5) i hate being force
6) backstabb me and u will live ya life in agony
7) LOVE KARAOKE!!

7 THINGS TAT SCARED ME
1) cant get married to AFAD
2) cant have babies uwek...tk nk!!
3) cant sing!!
4) ma MOMSIE
5) AFAD TINGGALKAN AKU.>TIDAKKKKKKKK!!!
6) die in tragic way..
7) dumb forever

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT
1)
2)-----------TAKDE
3)
4)---------------------LAGU!!!
5)
6)
7)

7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST
1) MA BABY AFAD
2) being kissed by him
3) sleep in his arm
4) ma body of course
5) KARAOKE LAh...!!
6) clubbin - but i aint a clubber ok!!
7) drinkin with baby

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) syg u b!!
2) terpulang
3) lantak
4) suka hati kau
5) think before u speak
6) karma baby, it does go around
7) i nak ******!!! hahah :D

7 PEOPLE TO THIS
= NO ONE!! = wakakakaka

k i wont reply to all the tag
especially taggies from the irritatin FIONA hahaha
geram aku suka flood sia...
btw pardon ar ngan aku pe tag-board
ade suars sikit ar..
have to refresh2 keke :D

baby'sweetie!! thanks for droping by syG!!

to de 7 names yg kena sabo tuuuu
minta maaf lah bnyk2 kekekeke :D
hey...

i dun give a damn abt ma ex anymore
but he keep on lookin for me
suckz??
why i didnt tell him off??
i dun even wanna waste ma time tellin him tat
let him feel de pinch himself

k lets NOT talk abt him

lets talk abt fa[d]ee. . .
5 more days to go..
fa[d]ee's 5 month together
awww how times flies...
i love him even more n more den before. . .
i know tat i will never find anyone betta THEN AFAD
he's de best...de greatest...!!!
im loving him!!!
b'day baby dah nak dekat hahaha :D
iake...
lagi 2 bulan lebih
he told me he wanna dressed me up
so i can be de most beautiful girl on earth
awwwwwwww baby u're so sweet.....
ahaha dun care i hold u to dat!!! kekee

well to ma LADY JAY
i dunno wat's come over u..
kepala aku sakit ar..
i didnt meant to laugh abt YA SADNESS
haiz...
it great to maki each other..
once u're ok den tok to me k syg
dun wanna disturb u..
NANA SKY talk to her pls...
ok thanx darlz...

k lah aku nak tok to ma BABy ar...
penat kat dpn comp....
and btw..
dis saturday IM GOIN TO KL!!!

yeahness for me and baby
why??
COZ HE'S GOIN TOO YEAH!!!
hahahahahha :D
bye smua...

jumpa bila ade jodoh ok kekek

2006-06-13T09:34:00.000+08:00

as usual taggies reply 1st k

ct : Tag tag taggie!!
kekekeke sorielah tgh takde kerje,saje je
kacau2..hehe wel tc darlz muax..!hp dah hlg
duno how to contact u.. :(

midiosa : haha sayang!! nevermind u can always col me
or msn me if u feel like tokin to sumone k hehe

ira` spidey : best sey dia go drink!! next time
ajak ira k??hurhurhurhur can i have ur eyes
please??ahaks!

midiosa : keke :D k i'll dun worie..keke :Dma eyes..tak boleh!!
pinch* ira face till lebam keke :D

=end=

im down with flu and farkin asthma
everytime i woke up from ma sleep
i'll be in pain. . .
sighing . . .

yesterday baby kinda forced me to
accompany him to LOT 1
coz' he wanna cut his hair. . .
i really wanna go but MOMSIE
hmm tau2 lah korg perangai mak mcm mana
if asyik kuar aje
cnfirm 1 day kena GROUNDED
aiyo i make it sound awful
btw AKU tak kena grounded
its juz she want me to stick ma butt at HM
tu je. . . rindu ar tu. . .

den baby take iniative to mit me
so he came over to ma crib
he brought DVD MOVIE CARS. . .
aiyo i didnt understand each single
line in de movie wahahaha
mana tak
its all abt car sia
mcm tak best gitu. . . kekeke :D
sorie if taste aku dgn taste korg berlainan. . . .
den we watched soccer together
geram aje AUS VS JPN 4-1
mepek kan?? wahahahahhaha

i've decided to change ma SONG
again . . .
im not tired of it. .
i wanna show him
how deep is ma love towards him

he's the best
never once he make me cry
huh??
aku bedek??
aku pernah nangis??
yeah true
but i cried at tat time pun
its becoz i kept having the thought
tat he having an affair or
he will patch things up wit his ex. . .
sighin
i know by having those kind of thought
its like i've doubts with his love. . .
nah. . .
i juz too carried away with his ex incident. . .

geeesh. . .
pray hard to god tat i will stay strong. .
COZ
i wont wanna turn back time if i've been given a chance. .
WHY??
i wont wanna be with TAT SUMONE who i love for nearly 4yrs pluz. . .
WHY??
i wont wanna be in a relationship
tat was full of tears of lies & drama. . .
WHY??
but never once i fake ma smile. . .
WHY??

BEcoz
i onli expressed ma feelings thru ma TEARS. . .
im so hurt and heartache back then
so i decided to walk away from all the misery
and ended all the pain i've been thru
which i called ma TRUE LOVE. . . but it juz wasnt
everythin was fake. . .
everything wasnt sincered as im hopin it to be. . .

wat ma fren told me was all true
iF u in a relationship. . .
ur partner will NEVER fill ur life with TEARS. . .

never once i thought tat
i cud love somebody den THIS SOMEONE
never once i cud shower ma love
to SOMEBODY who's more worth for it
never thought tat SOMEBODY WUD LOVE ME SINCERELY

and NOW!!!

*i've found THE ONE
who never fail to cherish me every single day

*a loving guy
who loves to show his affection indirectly

*a guy who doesnt make
ALOT OF PROMISES and break 'dem

*a guy who always there
wen im in need of his attention

*a guy who doesnt really
have the look BUT THE HEART

*THE ONE WHO
SIMPLY SIMPLE IN EVERY WAY

AMIR FADLI. . .
im glad tat i've bumped into you
im glad tat we're now a LOVING COUPLE
tat SOULFULLY ATTACHED TO EACH OTHER
who learned how to cope n deal with complicated stuff. .
the patience in u makes ma love grown even much stronger

i wont let anyone destroy FA[D]EE

talk to NADD juz now. . .
sedikit sebanyak. . .
aku menyedari hakikat yang sebenar
only her & me know wat's goin on. . .
really need a POSITIVE THINKER LIKE HER in ma life

and other positive thinker . .

the mulut jahat. . LADY J
the merepek. . KAY
the ketot. . . .TITI
the funky. . . AMOY
the gila2. . .. NASTY
the baru nak rapat hehe ...imah

hmmm and some of the bLOGGERMATE
*b (baby sweetie)
*ct
*fida
*fiona
*keci[k]enit
*ira`spidey (bila lah nak add kat msn tunggu mcm buah tk jatuh)
*the susah nak chat dgn bz woman TITI VOK
*valentina

BY THE WAY KAN
bdk2 blog dah ade kan meet-up session rupanya
geram aje tk ajak uwek....
hahaha :D
tkpelah. . hari lain pun ade. . . :D

its nearly 9.30am
i feel so shagged whY??
becoz. . .
i havent been sleepin for almost
22 hrs . . .
and ma phlegm got blood sia
maybe due to MA TEMPERATURE
tapikan. . badan aku tk panas. .
panas dlm ke??
ntah ar. . .
ma tekak so de perit. .

today i decided to meet baby
why??
jgn kaypo. . ade lah reason tersendiri
naDD u know i know keke :D
will be meetin him at INTERCHANGE. . .
maybe imah will be comin over to his crib too

message to stella aka ma twin
MANA KAU MENGHILANG???
MSN TKDE...
FRENSTER KAU DELETE....
hmmm is there sumthin botherin u darlz??
dial ma no. k tok to me aiyo. . .

k peepz. . .
i really need to rest ma eyes and ma body
it aches all over xia

AKU BETUL SYGKAN AMIR FADLI
and to hmmm onli nad & me je tau. .
i need not need u in ma life sukcerz kekek
alah by me sayin all this korg ley agak2
wat im tokin abt. .

but KORG TAHU KE APE AKU BEBUAL??
hehhe :D
baby?? u tau ke??
tk yah tahu sudah hehe
yang penting kita happy kan b??

love u always tau!!

2006-06-11T13:50:00.000+08:00

firstly let me reply to all the taggies aite

mOz : wei dee! aku da masok blog kau!Tag! i'll
link u up k huney

midiosa : thanx mOzzy

kay : BOOOYAAA!!

midiosa : wah kay asal hyper nah kat blog aku! :D

nana cyber : hey!!link me yeah.
lovellie blog!TC 3x

midiosa : hey i'm gonna link u up soOn k darlz
suka flood tag board erk? knock*nana head keke

zinana : YES YES YES!!IT SUCKS WHEN GUYS DO THAT
SIAL KAN LELAKI NIE SEMER
GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

midiosa : relax chil, kebanyakkan lelaki sial but not my one haha :D

nana sky : weii nape mara2 ni...sabar2 2x

midiosa : aku rasa yg nama nana smua suka flood tau keke :D
yeah sabar slalu gue nie

chicka : fierce nye awak anjat gegerl..anigiis take care k girl~

midiosa : fierce mau lebih chicka kekek :D

= THE end=

last nite was awesome
get to mit afad ard 1.15pm
and we go jalan cari pasal
hahah :D
no lah. .
we settle down at one place.at 2.45pm . .
he bought liqour and coke for me
and stout for him
but tat liqour dia pun minum
pasal aku tk terminum whY??
bayangkan juz de to of us ...
and no PAKAU
no lagu!!!
so de mendak
ni ar bala2 tk turun
geram aje. . .
nearly 5+hrs we got to spend time together. . .

den
ard 8.30PM we decided to proceed to abg BOy's crib
den nampak si nasty & fifi . . .
BABY brought JIM BEAM OVER
ade lagik 1/3 tk habis. . .
aku dah kebulur
nasib baik kak as masak mee goreng
but aku tk makan nampak pedas
so aku asyik sental de ayam heheheh :D
and de guys bz watchin the worldcup
england vs paraguay 1-0
siakenz. . . . nasib baik tk bet apape keke

den baby walked me hm coz i insist
dia mati2 nak naik cab
but i tknk
iyelah bnyk sngt cash dia kluarkan
aku satu sen pun tk kuar
ish. .
kesian baby penat sampai kaki sakit
sorie k syg. . .

sorie ar if aku jap kol him baby jap kol him afad
kekek its becoz aku lagik biasa kol him baby
panggilan manja hehe :D

baby reached hm ard 0005hrs
he called me but sound so dead
ahahah penat cian dia. . . . .
talked for tk sampai 20mins
i asked him to sleep
wah dgn lincah member ckp
love u bye sayang
geram aje. . . .

den aku pun badok kelaparan ahahah
makan cornflakes
hahaha :D
jgn tanya . . .tkpe aku jawab je lah
sebab MOMSIE TK MASAK
pemalas betul jhehehehe

den recieved msg & 1 missed call from LADY J
aku pun tngh tkde pape nak buat
aku pun called dia. . .
touchin kan penat2 pun aku call
den rupanya conference dgn NANA SKY
suara so hmm sexy wakakaka
dia tk bnyk tok pasal penat agaknye layan si LADY j
kekeke :D
no offence erk..syg kau !!!

den aku minta nak letak tepon coz i wanan tok2 with
ma sista in law. . .
hanged up.. .
den de tokin session pun start from
0200hrs till - 0630hrs
wahlau mata pun dah berat
wakakakak :D
so aku tido. . .
den aku bangun ish it was 1315hrs !!!!
aku overslepT!!!
aku tk dpt ikot g wild wild wet!!!
uwek!!!
but nvm
its rainin
padan muka sape suruh tk kejot aku
wahahahahah :D

k i really wanna meet baby nari
but it seems baby still in de lala-land session
and it's raining damn heavily sia. .
feel wanna tido balik. . .
waakakkaakakka

k nvm. . .
now i wanna go mandi
and get sumthin to eat. .
kepala so sakit. . . hahahah :D

well ade gmbr aku ambik dgn afad
on friday but kan belum upload so
tunggu ajelah erk. . .

p/s : sayang afad!! dun care
9 days to go weeeeeeee :D

2006-06-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

k im not in de best mood!!!
suckzss
fancy askin me to put down the phone!!!
juz becoz u online with ya fren. . .
why i make a issue on this
it's becoz. .

u're the type who loves to conference!!!
ma call with whoever tat call u!!. .
but juz now u didnt!!
so is tat AMIR FADLI tat i know for nearly 5 month??!!
no!!
and

secondly
i asked u to get ur arse ONLINE IN MSN!!
but U DIDNT!!!

hey!!
its freakin 20hrs i didnt get to tok to u!!
and u asked me to call u later!!!
juz becoz u're still online with bitch/arse??

why most of sentences end with exclamation marK???!!!
its becoz im mad
and when im mad
i tend to raise ma voice
and wen i raise ma voice
and baby will be hurt by it. .
and it will hurt me toO. . . . .

i've promised him
tat i try not to raise ma voice. . .
i try to change ma sickening attitude
tat he been tolerate and still toleratin
i noe im suckz at time
but wat can i do sia!!..
:'(
sob...sob. . .

i juz cant believe tat baby ask me to call later. . .
and continue tokin to his fren
20hrs doesnt hear each otha voice. . .
juz smsin. .
and this is wat i get. . .
duncha look forward to tok to me baby??
duncha??

why am i cryin over this stupid matter..
why am i being so emotianal . .
i've to telan all ma kesedihan kan???!!!
so everyone will be happy. . .

why peepz have to be cruel to me. . .
or am i being cruel to maself??

do i've to keep on fakin ma smile
juz to make everyone happy. .
if i think of maself. .
people will called me SELFISH. . .
im stuck. .

now
*silence*
feels like dialin baby's hm no.
and tok to him. . .
but i wont want him to hear me cryin
i wont want him to c me weak
i wont want him to label me possessive..
am i??
i love him..:'(

2006-06-08T13:58:00.000+08:00

edited in green

ALL MA SYG2 MA BLOGGERMATE TO BE EXACT
PLS CHANGE MA LINK's NAME
TO MIDIOSA tankius. . .

aku upgrade sikit demi sedikit blog aku ni
nampak mcm plain but nvm
as long sedap mata memandang
and i change de song toO
its ma fave song lagu lama. . .
but bley buat aku joget2
angkat2 bahu summore hahahah

as for today aku tk tahu
wether got to meet afad or not
geram aje
member smlm pergi jb
balik kul 3am and aku pun da doze off
tak tahu asal dah tk ley stay up lama2
maklum badan semakin tua
and afad nari got bola kat camp
mcm paham aje main bola
wahahaha

its rainin outside but dah nak reda
maklumlah anak2 sedara aku da stop karaoke
wakakak :D

k im gettin bored. . .
and now im chattin with NADD aje
ngah tok abt de meetup
yg some bloggers been tokin abt!!
bila jacko!!!

ni frenster minta kena sampiong dgn aku
aku dah edit lawa2 dia turn up mcm gitu je
aku dah wait dari smlm mcm gitu je
wangajak betul. . .
nadd psycho suruh tutup frenster
wahwahwah heheh :D
if aku tutup masuk ni dah 5 account sia
wahaha

wahahahahaha
k lah aku nak p mandi ar. . .
pape tag2 ait

i missh afad!! chibai .........
k mulut dee jahat hahaha
but i love afad dun care

now aku ade sikit realise
hmm afad g work
tk msg aku pun. . .
balik jb pun tk kol!!!. . .
k tkpe. . .
aku msg pun tk reply
main bola?? aiyo its rainin abis main bola
btw masih rainin ar. .
tadi nampak mcm nak reda. .
arghh!!

12 days to go to our 5 month anniversary
hahaha cant wait for dis saturday ar
afad nak blanje aku yeah!!
u know i know aite baby!!

2006-06-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

taggies replied (ni part dtg aku pe rajin)

Kay : eh kau dah tak tag aku lagik.. rabak
....smalam sweet nah kau msg aku forwarded msgs
hehehehehehe...syg kau!!muackz

: woiittt aku takle keluar babtu tak gii dokkk..
bukann aku tanakk gii ehh.kau taulahh aku nye situation
mcm mana dokkk

Midiosa : dok dah bagus tu aku nak sms dok
buang2 duit aku je dok hahaha :D syg kau gak dok!!
wa pun no hal dok, wa pun tk mit kekek :D

fiona : ah

Midiosa : hey baybeh kau nak moaning pun
panjang2 ar sikit ape aku rasa siot pendek gitu :d
hahahahaha

ira`spidey : awak!!!i love ur eyes lah..mcm besar
mcm jepon gituk!! cutez kan heheeh lagu sedap
make me stick to ur site. ..hehe!

Midiosa : haha u love ma eyes i also lurb2 ya one lah
hope u glue ya pantat here agik aite hehe lurb! LU!!

comel : dee! its been such a long time since i went into
ur bloog. anyway the mit up with HER was tak jdi.keke
so serams g2..

Midiosa : haha d!! hey sememangnya lama kau tk jejak ke sini
hahaha wakaka seram erk..me agik takot wakaka :D

zinana : selamat bertunang abg jaar!! sorry eh,
i didnt attend the engagement .keje lah

Midiosa : keje2 keje asyik keje je hahahaha

ellette* : ello sweets!!well girl i think u r her idol.
dats y she wanna be lyke u!! lolx.pathethic sey dat ***

: add me in fwenster ok :kiss:

Midiosa : hahaha memang pathetic moron!! wakaka
u've been added..cium kau balik!! hur hur hur...

-TAGGIES REPLY ENDED-

now its time for de entry wahaha

aku lurb BABY AFAD!! waahahah
why i dun call him fadli agik
it's becoz aku pe suka ar tk membazirkan airliur korg pe

hey nasty its been 1wk 3 days sia tk mit!!
geram aje. . nvm tunggu tgh bulan. . aku penat ar ckp
so aku wait diam2 pape aku picit untuk mit up wakakak

kenapa erk dlm hubungan makin syg makin bnyk gaduh
gaduh bende merepek plak tu geram aje
bacin sia. . hahaha
nvm. . wat important
breathe in breathe out yg penting betul tak nadd!!
wakaka

k tadi aku get to meet si biol ni alah AFAD lah aiya
went his crib around 1715hrs
bakal mutha-fatha in law, busu and ami at home
hahah aiyah. . . bayangkan si ami lum bangun2 sampai skrg
tido serupa babi wakaka
k tkpe..get to watch DIRTY LOVE kelakar nak mampus aku tk tipu!!
so go tengok ar. . nak pinjam dvd??
rilek sudah aku nak pinjam dulu wakakakak
k aku lame buat lawak sorg. .
aiyah. .
baby being so wonderful juz now. . .
cant resist of kissin him!!. .
sampai dia penat . .
penat ke??
wahahaha. . .
he said im cute. . but he said he's more cuter
rabak kan!!

baby on his way to jb with his parent and busu
jalan 2nd link mengada2 show off bike ar tu!!
uwek. . .
k gtg momsie bisinG!!
uwek bro dah ambik his laptop
i cant surf net lagik lama2 chibai........hahahah

k adioz...
p/s : b u make me turn on tak tahu nak turn me off alik ek!! :D

2006-06-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

u im too tired to update ma blog
but aku degilkan diri ehehe
touchin kan its been 4 days
blog aku tk d-update
:D

firstly aku nak nagdu sikit ar
im farkin rimas and suffocate
with one bitch who LOVES
TO BE LIKE ME
i dunno why. .
de way she talk de way she dress up
de way she put on her make up. .
maybe its coincidencely sama
but i dun think so. . . bingit sia
aku tahu kau tahu aku tahu
abt ni no-self-identity issues
but kau still continue mcm siak ar...
geram je
k end it here. .

secondly,
well ma bro isaac & nia
telah slamat BERTUNANG yesterday
tats was on
04th june 06 . . .
sape yg ade penyakit
short-term-memory lost tk ley ingat ar
jadi aku saje2 bilang date dia hehee
of course it was a tiring day. . .
mana tak. . .
de sarung cincin session and tukar dulang end
around 3+pm gitu. .
reached ma cribs ard 4pm i think. .
then i rushed to B.BATOK st 11
kak yati's sanding . .
she was SO PRETTy
and of course always pretty lah aiyah. . .

den i had ma 1st meal of de day
rabak erk ish. . .
den ard 5.30 baby's turn went ma crib. . .
duduk kejap je. . den he patah balik b.batok

k enough of smlm. . . hahaha
aku penat ar nak ingat ape jadi. .

as for today tkde benda jadi. . .
aku busy cuci kain berlambak mcm 2 bulan tk cuci
haiz. .
penat gila. . nasib baik
washing-machine penyelamat aku hahaha
baby suppose to mit me
but he conned me sia
rabak. . .
never mind. . .

aku rasa skrg dia tgh on de way go JB
with ami,azhari,abg boi and ma future motha-fatha-in law
hahahaha

to ma twin STELLA
ya purse kat rumah aku!!
hahaha
dah ade member lupa aku tkpe
aku tk kisah tk pasal
im ok. .
susah carik senang buang
dah adat
tomorrow maybe i'll be meetin
lady j and KAY
yeah hahaha. .
hopefully takde kebuehan berlaku besok
wakaka. . .haiz. . .

15 more days to go to
FA[D]EE 5months together
how fast time flies
dee will love u anytime anywhere hehehe
k lah time to update ma frenster. . .
gd nite smua!!

2006-06-02T03:02:00.000+08:00

juz got hm juz now
20 mins ago. . .
ma hand ma back aches alot
aiyah. .
tomorrow have to continue agik
buat ape??
henna!!
i've too kak yati need help
so dgn sukacita nye aku pun menolong
tkpe dpt upah. . .

nasib baik kak yati minta design simple
kekek if tak hancus aku
hahaha :D
im only a beginner okhaiz
tadi buat pun terkial2
i oni do both palms nlegs
tinggal tangan yg sbalah depan je
tu besok de finishin part ar

tk sempat. . .
baby's old man ade JOB kul 0500hrs
cian kan. . .
nasib baik baby momsie tolong aku kekeke
start from 11+ gitu sampai kul 0200hrs tadi
kekeke :D
ish cian baby sampai tertido2 tunggu aku
ekeekk besok wait lagik ar k eheheh :D

i think i have to sleep ish
mata tk ngantok plak
mana tak dah lantak kopi
aiseybala...ish....
kena main angin dulu ish. . .

to a guy. . i know u will be readin ma blog
sorie for wat telah happen juz now in de afternOOn
i guess its de end aite..
anyway u juz take care aite. .

ma shoutbox plak buat hal
ape aje ntah geram xiakkkk. . .
nasty confirm tgh ni dansing2 ish
geram waiit ar dee return. . .
dis week bz gila ar..aiseybala

aww................
im freakin bored and shagged
aiyah ma song makes me wanna dance2 sia. .
i shall return yeah2!! hahaha
fark. . .
k guyz gtg now. . muax..stupid...
shud i change ma url back??
or shudnt
wahlauwey. . . .
i juz doesnt want history to be repeated sia. .
nvm

k midiosa nak main angik
adioztoz

2006-06-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

juz wakey after ma hp beep
SO LOUD stupid. .
t kde value pun aku nak use ringtone hahaa
well baby syg msged
he juz reached hm
dia pe pandai aku suruh dia kol tapi tak. .
sibuk main game
arghh

aku take a short nap
due to ma bad flu n bad headache
aiseybala
all pasal smlm kena slam2u know i know ar . .
and tat stupid "HOSTIL'
so gross. . u guyz must watch 9/10
bagus wa ckp sama lu olang

ma body so damn weak
ma eyes so blurry sia
bingit je. . . type slow mcm turtle
geram je. . dis laptop get on ma nerve
kekek dee dah pandai pakai laptop
hahaha. .
k its not mine
i ts juz for temporirly
( btul ek spellin dia..aku tk tahu ar malas nk check dictionary)

alah dis cumin sunday
is ma bro engagement day. .
so dia pinjam katil aku yg cute tu. .
and exchange his laptop yeah. . .

between me n baby. . .
we juz go with the flow. . .r
elationship?? fulls of up&down. .
so we try our best to overcome any upcomin obstacles
we love each otha alot. .
and
his family loves me ahahah
k ni part aku perasan ar..
but suka plak..
k ni touchin
wen his momsie told me
"dee taknak langsung dgn abg dee skali. .
kan senang. . . tumpang rumah pompuan"
heheheh
touchin kan..
baby & his family loves to make me smile
kekek
his brotha ami told me and i did smile big2 nye keke
"he wont go back to tat bitch, btw u make a betta sista-in-law :D"
hahaha isnt he cute
wakakaka
haiz. . .
and for baby. .
every single day every moment im with him
w/o fail he will always gets to make me smile
even he knows when i fake ma smile. . psychic ar nie anak. . .
k tkmo marah ar english aku berterabur
aku blog2 pun to practice ma english..
wah dee dah nak speakin london siots
ahaikz. . .

now im smsin baby usin web sms
msn aku diam mcm kat cemetery
smua bz ar tu . .
tkpe
aku pun tgh sakit nak chat pun tk bermaya.
.so i juz do one thing at one time. .
nak update frenster pun naik malas. . .
haiz. .

nasty ajak go dblo
aku nak ikot uwek..
but baby cian he tgh kering
tkpe we wait pelan2 k. .t

o kak yati dee sorie tk dpt buat henna
if ya collegue (spellin betul tk?? jgn teguh k)dpt buat kan bagus ar. . .
im totally tgh shagged sia..
tk tahu apsal ntah
tiba2 jadi gini. .ish.. geram je. . .
actually aku tk tahu ape nak type agik
otak blank. .aku dah kemas rumah
dah tido. .
dah makan. .
lum mandi.. .
hhahahaha
wanna tok to baby!!
yakdish !! tk tahu kol ar ni anak. .
geram ar
malam dia dah bz buat pelamin. .
stupid him. . .
dah bagus org tknk kacau dia
dia ckp malam ley bebual. .
ngada2 nah
nanti bila aku tk understandin mengomel2. . . .

k syg2 kuz. . .
kepala aku dah terasa berat gila. .
i think i wanna sleep sampai mlm ...
haiz. .i missh baby uwek...muax!!!!!!!

2006-05-31T12:05:00.000+08:00

dedicated this song to ma precious BABY
sighin. . . .

its been 5 days since tat incident
and it still hauntin me in ma dreams
i cant believe i've been sleepin in tears
for de past 3 days. . .
am i afraid being left alone??
am i afraid being dump??
am i afraid being accuse of not being a GD GF??
sighin. . .
indeed i'm afraid. .
im afraid of gettin into an arguement with baby
and he would do sumthin
tat i doesnt even want to elaborate here
i wont want to fake ma smile. .
coz it damn hurt. . and it hurt
really hurt . . .
now i can really feel how hurt baby`sweetie's feelin
been fakin her smile dulu. .
sighin. . .
enuf said abt ma TAKUT-NESS hehehe

talk to B, lady j, nad, sasha, stella, imah & ami
wahlauwey bnyk erk org kekeke
i've juz have to keep maself bz and tok to people
they gave me a moral support
and positive advice and i heed it
been tellin maself " dee everythin will be ok nothin will hapen.!!"
aiyah but den why did i cried in ma sleep??
its becoz AKU TERLALU SYGKAN FADLI . . .sob sob
touchin kan . .

maybe im too sensetive or wat
or keep on running a wild negative imagination
abt baby. .
i juz cant help it
like baby said its woman's nature
hahahh tat's why im so in love with him
he really understand me and begin to learn de real me
aiyah. . .

u may look me so damn weak
coz i'm de quite type of person tat really not
into all those silly-gurl-fight-for-a-guy
but pls dun get on ma nerve. . .
coz nothin is impossible. . . get wat i mean??
i can be MEAN!!!!

i wanna say sorie to ma lady jay aka ma adeq
for not mittin her last nite asyik bueh aje
paisey
aku bz ar at HM so sorie. . . .
well aku dah buat kan kau pe gmbr. . .
hope u like it. . . .
so cpt reply kat msn dena ku send aite..
sorie tadi kau kol aku ngah tido so ade sikit bingit ar
kekeke :D bila kena kejut. . .

baby nari tk work he juz msged me
haiz. . . i wanna mit him. . .!!
and he wanna meet me toO!!
but. . . i wanna go out. . .
and nO CASH sob...sob..wakakakakka
so have to wait patiencely for today income hahaha
its de end of de month lah!!
so will recieve $$$$ yeah hahahaha

k b me dah update kekeke
erk bila mau meet cpt book aku ar
rabak sey. . .

and btw tk yah ar kutuk2 aku kat blakang aku
kutuk lah dpn but aku pun tk kisah
aku pun ade kutuk org w/o mention thier name
tapikan wen aku tk mention org lain plak terasa
merepek kan. . .
even though aku tkde kena mengena dgn dia
ish. .
like aku ckp..
I WONT BITCH ABT PEOPLE I NEVER KENAL
so stick tat in ya brain
major turn off. . .

now its 12.24 to be exact cheydebah aku sbrg
aku belum mandi and ma eye start to itchy2
haiz. . .
aku tgh dlm mood
penat-lapar-ngantok-tak kuasa hehehe :D

2006-05-28T15:05:00.000+08:00

REDITED WITH PIX

i dun really know why peepz always emotionally hurt
with wat i've written in ma blog n friendster profile
never i mention name or a pet name. . . .

last nite
de least thing unexpected have occured
it hurt me to type out everythin abt yesterday . . . .

sumone blamin me for tokin abt her at ma profile
and fucked me up n down
and even threatened me tat
she can even snatch ma man anytime she want. . . .
sighin. . . .
i didnt even tok abt anyone!!!
if i did im not tokin abt u!!
and u cant blamin blindly juz becoz coincidenly
u tght it was abt u but it was not
wen i didnt even mention abt name

u can call me cowarD
yes im a coward for not explainin things!!
haiz..
im not even fit to be call a MANUSIA
im sad!!
help me...pull me out from dis dark hole

i wont drag dis matter coz i didnt even do it. . ..
why must korg EMOSI dgn ape aku tulis??
and im farkin weak
im weak inside and
even phsycally( is tat de spellin??) weak!!

i feel so low, so down
and feel so pressurize. . .
been cryin from last nite till now. . .
even wen im tokin to baby juz now
he didnt even notice wether i cried or not
):
but deep inside him,
he knows that watever happened last nite
still bothers me. . .
b u're de best. . . .
it hurt me. . .
i didnt get to sleep last nite
tat explained why i woke up late. . .

later we'll be goin to abg boy's crib
return ar karaoke
smlm tk dpt go. . .
celebratin ma sista b'day. . .
haiz..but it sux. . . .
aiya malas nak citer..

onli story de best part k. . .
met baby @ cck mrt ard 1545hrs
reached townie ard 1625hrs
ate @ burger king
had ma whopper meal. . .
i was damn full haiz.. . .

den. . .
go jalan2 lepak at taka waited for
nasty & bala . . .
met dem @ far-east plaza pavement. .
den tat was wen de aku-nak-ambik-matair-kau-bila-bila-pun-bley
happened..
i was not in de mood. . .
fakin ma smile all de way to taka garden
baby bought 3 stouts & gold label . .
de taste was like hmmm
yanti-me-fifi-ma sista knew
wakakakaka
fifi whos' fifi..
anuar gf`s 1st time saw her
jambu doK..
kawan2 aku smua jambu..
hahahah k part ni aku perasan . . .
den some of de rev`s gu turun ar. . . .
den lepak at dpn rolex beside lucky plaza
den nanachica also turun whOOOohoooo.....
1st time saw her..
so sweeet i liooke...
ten ma bro isaac and his future-fiancee pun turun
aiyah..
den plan cock up last min..
malas nak citer..
k nana jgn lupa upload gmbr tau!!! ok!!!
hahahaha

k skrg aku tgh pedih2 minta lady jay lagu
aiyah
linangan airmata jatuh ke pipi
tandanya aku bersedih kerana mu..
lyric taken from one of siti nordiana song's

amir fadli aka ma baby aka ma soul mate aka ma everythin
i noe watever happened, de words tat i heard
wasnt ur fault. . .
im still hurt. . and i noe u know. . .
im weak and u noe tat. .
im sensetive. . . u noe tat. . .
but im not at fault ..do u noe tat??
do u noe tat i really really thousand million love u??
do u noe tat never once i really2 luk forward to live with u
and make a scene with ma family..haiz...
do u noe how much i treasure n cherish u every sec
ma heart beats for ur name. .
im beggin u like hell not to ever leave me alone. . .
i dun wish fa[d]ee to be seperate very meanly. . .

oh god. . .
why must dis things hapened

oh god. . .
how i wish u cud take all dis away . . . .

oh god. . .
i noe im to hina` to even ask u all this. . .

pls take me back to de place i belong. . .
amir fadli dun deserve all dis pain . . . .
):
he's one great lovin romantic guy. .
how i wish if im dead..
he will get amnesia and he will forget
all abt fa[d]ee. . .so he wont be hurt. . .
ma love for him is so strong. . . .
if happen wen im die he got AMNESIA
i wont get to c him cryin and tats will make me feel betta. . .
im not worth for his tears. . .

b im sorie. . . .
i juz love u and wanna show u tat ma love for u is so true. . .
i wont want u to be hurt in silence. .
i noe how dreadful it hurt. .
haiz. . .

rain rain go away
come again anotha day
midiosa want to karaoke
so it will cheer up her day. . . .

midiosa outz . . .
i love u amir fadli . . .
dun turn ya back on me. . . .
i need u coz i want u. . . love u syg

nasty_me_fifi gundu pe anuar ambik gmbr jauh2
dia step aku pe hp 20 mega pixel je hahaha

me n nasty..haha rambut maintain k babe..sexy pe lu ckp jacko hehe :D

2006-05-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

i've change ma music,
i think this song suits the layout theme
got de song from VALENTINA hehe tanx babe
at 1st wen i listen to this song
tk berapa favourite ar
skali wen asyik blog hoppin
g browsin all de friendster profile
aiyah lots got this song sia
terus addicted
and i liokke de lyric toO hehehe
BUT LAGU NI TKDE KENA MENGENA DGN
HIDUP AKU JUZ LOVE DE MELODY

its raining outside
and im freakin cold inside momsie roOm
typin out this entry
i mish ma baby . . .
i mish de warmth wen being hug & caress

he's now tgh buat pelamin at duNNo-where-de-place
he came over to ma crib juz now
juz to pass bro isaac cigar
how i wish i can juz hug him a lil longer
and kissin like we used too. . .
dee kau ley berangan sudah. . . .

we've been kinda busy and
doesnt really have de time for each otha
if ade pun wen kuar not really spendin time hmm ntahlah..
i wont wanna think much
i jus simply mish him veli2 badly

im in sesentive mood really. . .
so dun provoke me or i'll get nasty

hey got one bitch out there
is tryin to take ma baby away from me
claimin tat i doesnt even know how to take care of FADLI
and she even proudly sayin baby kept on ctc her ..
oh god dis bitch bein lame...
so being positive midiosa i wont want to jump conclusion
tried to ask baby abt de truth
he said he DIDNT...

so guyz mana korg nak percaya???
i wont wanna trust anyone but maself
baby syg dun get me wrong
i trusT and believe in u but in dis situation
i rather believe maself. . .

hell yeah
u wanna take him away
its ma pleasure i wont fight for it
i noe wat's mine will legally be mine one fine day
not by force...
so
let fate decide..

im not being lenient or in otha words
" mcm tkde benda gitu org nak ambik jantan aku "
puttin ma ego aside*
hey im scared ok of losin baby
but wat can i do..
it take two hand to TANGO
so i need not worried like a mad woman
if baby tk gatal he wouldnt be taken away by anyone
betul TTAK???

so bitch dream on wakakak

k lets drop de subject..meluat plak. . .

last nite aku hmm kinda like argue with baby
but juz for awhile
sumthin tat not suppose to type out here
haiz...nvm
we still manage to baik kan keadaan
syg u baby..

so guyz besok i'll be goin out
but dunno where to go
any suggestion??
cover charge murah ade tak ade tak ade???
aiyah...

but i'll be karaoke-ing at abg boy's crib besok
yeah...de system was awesome
tk sabar..aku ngah simpan suara ni hahaha
nasty if kau happen to baca entry ni
turun k !!!
hahahahahaha :D rindu ar

kepala aku tgh spinning macam merry-go-round plak
tangan tk sabar nak dial baby's no.
hahaha i wanna tok to him!!!
aiyah..

tadi baby dtg wore red-collar rev t-shirt
so hencem i lioooke
and so de wangi :D
how gifted dpt laki mcm gini aiyo..
and de cute voice he has wahahahahah

hey guys im not as low-self-esteem as ade org tu pikiak
baby made me realised tat im juz a lil-bit not confidence in maself. . .
baby ckp if aku low-self esteem aku dah depress sampai masuk IMH
hahaha :D
syg u fadLI!!

ni aku nak ckp lagi. . .
kalau korg rasa korg nak go between FA[D]EE
we welcum u. . .aite :D
hahahahaha fark ya mutha arse

tak pernah skali aku memilih kawan
baik bdk taik ke, minah ke bdk pandai ke bengap ke lawa ke terlebih cute ke
so jgn nak pandai goin ard bitch abt me
coz i wont bitch abt people I NEVR KENAL LIKE SUMONE DID
mutha faker...shooooooohh pergi sana
buat ape buat minta simpati kat sini. . . puit

before im gettin more n more mad n tok shit
i betta end it here. . . .
last but not least
any bloggermate nak buat meet-up pat mana2??
count me in aku nk jumpa kawan baru aku!!!
HEHEHEHE
especially yg kinda slalu keep track dgn aku ar
B,NAd,mimi caramel,ct,valentina,kecik, fiona
mrsneutron,fida&irah`spidey
hmm sape lagik erk ...
syg2 yg aku tk mention nama but ade tok with aku
aku nak mit korg gakz heheh:D

k lah gtg

AKU RINDU BAYI KU AMIR FADLI HAHAHAHA

2006-05-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

taggies replied

jay : hey syg sorie tk kol on tat day coz aku tk bukak blog pun :D

nad: hehehe gatal dgn kau aje tk bley
saturday club kape...on ar kakak aku pe b'day ar haha

mimiCaramel: hey pompuan skali 2x kau tag kekec

ct : u take care toO syg...catch me if u can hehe

chicka : hehe ingat jgn tk ingat tau babe...:D

=======================================================

haiz dah 4 hari aku tk update entry
baru 4 hari belum 40 hari wakakakakak
k stop it :D

well basically things on ma side goin on pretty smoothly
really thanx god for dgr aku pe doa :D peace
k citer bnyk aku nak ckp but aku summarize aje ar

dis comin 04.06.06
is ma BRO ISAAC ENGAGEMENT DAY..
CONGRATS BRO!!!. . . . .

coincidencely KAK YATI WEDDIN DAY too
aiyo...
i'll try to turun ya sanding aite sis. . .
haiz..

last 3 days was ma old man 54th b'day..
HAPPY belated B'DAY DAD!!..
he still down with flu..pity him.. tu lah
sape suruh marah aku hehehE...peace

den dis comin saturday is ma
sister linda 29th b'day. . . .
maybe i'll be celebratin her b'day ..maybe aje
havent plan yet. . . . .

yesterday met bala n nasty at bala crib's
karaoke-ing togetha...
and best..
aku ade karaoke ka-kis lagi satu
nasty hahahaha :D

gerak from there ard 2200hrs
momsie memekak aku asyik kuar aje
dia ckp " smlm jalan nari jalan..ukur jalan ekh??"
koajar betul hehe :D....
alah rindu aku lah tu ..tk dpt marah2 .. . .

now i'm sufferin PMS
rabak gila nye
patutlah last week aku emosi rabaknye
sampai dpt present dari BRO ISAAC
sape2 yg tahu present tu diam2 sudah . . . .

but i've ma every right to feel sad or wat
it's ma life anyway ...

hmmm i've changin skin coz tired of navigation
rosak aje navigate aku haha
maklumlah aku ni bodoh dlm HTML CODE ni smua
rembat je lah janji aku bley BLOG. . .
hmm i've change ma msn toO sape2 yg nak add..
under profile aku ade MA ADDIE ade pahamz. . . . .

im still fakin ma smile. . . .
still in de process of bein de OLD dee. . . .
im still feel so touched
tat baby still by ma side. . ..
he's de man tat i need in ma life!!!
he's de man tat i'll get married with!!
he's de man who i cherish every sec i breathe!!
he's de man who shows me everythin abt love!!

although fa[d]ee only 4mnth + old. . ..
de love tat we had is so bloody strong
and will goin on strong even till after death
k ni part smua touchin. . . but is de truth. . . .

i've learned wat i've to learn. . . .
i wont play anyone behind thier back
juz to get wat i want. . .
let fate decide. . .

i wont go ard and tell everyone
how bad ma life is. .
but actually juz to gained sympathy. . sux??
i did bump into sumone like tat. .
i juz pray dis person to realise de mistake soON
and repent. . .

nari nasty naik dblo. .
i cant make it. .

baby i missh u!!
seriously. . . . .
missh being pampered by u
its juz not de right time..aiyah . .. .
still i wanna spend ma time with u
hmm
sorie if tadi i kind like traumatize by ya words. . .
i love u b
dee love fad really......

like u said..we will get wat we need not wat we want..
we need sumthin badly
time doesnt let us to have it. . .
so we'll wait patiencely. . .
GOD IS FAIR. .
i wont play shit . . .

i need time to rest this comp of mine. . .
wanna ring baby
cian dia wait for me kekeke :D
k lah...happy taggin aite..muax smua..

aku ade ckp kan aku cut hair nak tengok??

aadd aku kat fwenster k hehe malas nak upload gmbr

bye smua :D

2006-05-21T13:41:00.000+08:00

hey im maybe a hypocrite
but i got pride
the pride have been hurt by sumone
and it affect ma emotion alot

hypocrites don't lie
but backstabbers do lie

i got this idea from de title oh HIPS DUN LIE
hahahahahaa

well...
i may seem very happy
typin out dis entry
but im fakin ma smile every now and then

between me n baby
juz hope things goin to be more n more betta for us..
now im livin ma life to de fullest
i will get wat i want..
and i will
u guys just wait and see
no force will be occur
juz the matter of fate..

watever happen ade hikmah disebalik kejadian
thanx god no one turns thier back on me
when i need dem..juz a few sucker who did

for all de taggies sorie syg2
i tk reply penat
and me dah ckp pun wont be replyin taggies
tu tagboard juz for a place for u guys to leave a msg to me

i wont rack de past
i wont...
and im actin as adult

btw salah ke kalau yepun aku nak emosi??
kenapa aku mesti telan kesedihan dan kemarahan??
im not tat type..
well guys i'm a hypocrite
im proud to said tat
COZ HYPOCRITE DUN LIE LIKE THEY DID!!!...

pls dun provoke me askin me abt de engagement
thingy and how i feel..
i know u guys are concern with me..
but the Q. will only make me burst to tears..
so i hope u guyz will cooperate with me...

for now im still waitin for ma precious baby to msg me
he didnt..
sighin..
i;ve cut ma hair wakakakaka....
buang suey (is tat de spelling??) :D
hahahaha its ma hair..
and its ma farkin blog..
u guys wanna emosi korg pe pasal..
and dun get me involve..
coz i never drag anyone to be in ma problem
like sumone did..
k lah..adioz..
im at anne's crib....
malas nak duduk rumah...
takot kena s**** agik wakakakakka D:

adioz again hahaha...
missin baby..will he change due dis problem we're havin??
only him N GOD KNOWS...

its ma feelin why make a issue??

2006-05-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

k i've deleted ma last entry
due to some personal problem involved
well im kinda kind enuf to consider ya feelin toO
u know who u're

for dis entry
i wont use vulgaritities (spellin betul ke rembat aje ar) like last entry
k im proud and sad to announce
tat FA[D]EE engagement for dis yr have been called off
mission failed. . .
and both of me and baby feel deeply hurt
but we as A ADULT takkan TUNDUK MENGALAH. . .
we'll try and keep on tryin till we achieved wat we want. . .
may be its de best for us and for our own good
not to be commited dis year. . .
may be it was a bad idea??
it wasnt
but juz not at a gd time to be engage
ye lah BABY still serving NS and me slackin at hm
mcm mana nak tunang??...
YANTI AKU SEDIH SIOT
paisey tk turun double O
semalam...
aku tkde mOOd ar seriously. . .

i wont be bloggin often due to unstable mood swing
in processin overcomin break-down-session. .
im hurt i cant deny tat. . .
i've been crying all nite yesterday. . .
thankfully de one i needed de most was by ma side
MA SYG AMIR FADLI. .
sorie if i terpekik terlolong mcm mad woman smlm
i tk kurang ajar atau besar kepala syg
its juz i dunno how to express ma anger in a nicer way
im glad tat u've been so patience last nite
and comfort me over n over again w/o kenal erti penat
u're de bestest syg i cud ever ask for. . . .

now i knew
ade manusia² kaypo di luar sedang membaca blog aku
and pass ard tentang aku
u know who u're
amaciam sampai mak aku sendiri tahu aku ade blog
touchin kan ni part. . . .
thankiuss veli veli much
coz if mak aku tk bebual dgn aku n clear things aku
tkkn berfikir dgn tenang ahahahaha

now aku declare
im on ma own in ma own world
i'm glad tat baby still with me,
ma momsie, ma old man
and
sumone tat always fought with me
but within a sec will baik with me ..
sape?? SUMONE WHO i taught
musuh dalam selimut but WASNT
u're de one who de one guting dalam lipatan!!..
makin me confuse
to pilih which baik which buruk...

i admit im at fault and too blind to
judge people, even to judge ma own blood. . .
im too scared to be own ma two feet..
but NOW de one who always support me
BUT WASNT
was de one who boost ma confidence
to be on ma own
in other word. INDEPENDENT.

i wont revenge anyone, and wont bear any grudges
coz im simply n deeply believe in karma
it goes ard...coz de world is round...
i hate being played dis way. . .
if at de 1st place im blamin u guys
for failin ma mission..
im sorie coz im wrong n childish to juz fark u guyz tat way
now i realised tat
I'VE BEEN SAVED FOR NOT RUSHIN THINGS....
wakakaka now who's de one who rushin things.??
hmm sendiri mau ingat
i wont interfere between u guys anymore...
u makin use of me all along...

thanx for all de fake moment of being supportive. . .
im glad i realised ma mistake of trustin people easily..
i wont want to repeat ma mistake again n again. . .
if u de one who poisoned peeps mind..
u goin to be regret soon

hidup ni ketentuan illah,
aku merancang allah tentukan aku tk tunang tahu ni
aku percaya pada qada' dan qadar...
jika ditakdirkan aku tunang, one fine day i will
and if not, aku terima seadanya. . .
aku percaya pada jodoh and will never force jodoh like u did
mempertahankan kebahagiaan yg sementara

lantaklah its ya life anyway..
and outsider turn ma famliy to a complete stranger
BRAVO give de person a round of applause yeah...*clap²*
im tired to talk abt peepz who's so bongkak...
so lets end it here

now i wana talk abt ma oni syg AMIR FADLI. . .
baby syg, im glad tat u can understand all ma needs
ma feelings and ma situation. . .
im glad tat u did really love me with ya sincere heart
well syg it doesnt matter if we tunang or not
coz we strongly believe in fate. . .
baby syg thanx for expressin ya feelin and
for put-a-side-ego momment last nite..
u make me feel more n more secure havin u as ma guy. .
we will overcome any upcomin obstacle with god wills. . . .
im so in love with u, and de love grow n grow
every second i breathe..
thanx for de promise tat u've made..
the promise of waitin for me. . .
by hook or by crook. . .
either we goin to be engage next yr or married...
we will wait patiencely. . .
it will be our turn soon. . . . . .
we just wait n see with our own eyes
listen with our own ears and feel with our own heart
wats goin to happen...
love ya baby deep deep nye

i'd enuf of people who always take advantage of ma slenge-ness
in trustin of people.
corrupted my mind wasnt makin me look more foolish
but de other way round..
i started to think mroe maturely on how u losers
susah payah mempermainkan perasaan aku..
ALLAH MAHA ADIL...

ntahlah lets nature take it cost..
lets fate decide wats de best...

watever happen
U GUYS CANT EVEN SEPERATE FA[D]EE
AND DESTROY THIER HAPPINESS... LOSERS....

well i've cancel ma friendster account
and will oni stick to blog n msn
this de only way for u guys to reached me
acitually im tired of everythin
but BABY AND DE REST DOESnT FAILED
TO MAKE MORE N MORE STRONGER
TO FACE ALL DE CHALLENGE..

thank god for blessin me with all de peeps
especially ma momsie n BABY...

last but not least
ade mata kita tengok ade mulut
lagik tak tahu kapa...diam tengok aje ar
kekeke :D
*fakin ma smile...*
love u fadli..
really thanx for everythin ...
pure love from u always make smile w/o fail...muax

gonna missh u for 3 days...
slamat pergi slamat balik
baby off to genting with family and
de rest of bdk² ard 2100hrs. . .
will be waitin for u syg...

happy 4th month anniversary
in ADVANCE SYG. . .
hopin u wont regret in
havin me as ya DEAR. .
coz im not..never once i feel regret..
i feel even more more gifted...

blurvsbiol eternity!!!

baby inssit of me changin ma url to avoid
any misunderstandin from whom may concern
but i dun feel like too
it will makes de bloggermate so incovinience..

love u guys...
stay true to be ma fren..please..
and syg baby...):

2006-05-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

i've ctc back my long lost fren ct mazwati
wat a pleasent surprised tat she's now married...
wah rabak member tk jemput
congratulation aite sis...
now we in touch back but no one will corrupted my mind
to lost touch with u, u know i know k syg

k between me n baby
i'm tired of all misunderstanding thingy tat have been occur
baby was sleepin last nite wen me, anne and kak reen been callin him
aiyah...
maybe im too sensetive ??
or maybe terlalu syg kan FADLI?? mungkin
tapi aku ada hak ke atas nye tapi bukan hak mutlak
coz i aint his lawful-wife sey hahahaa
will be meetin baby later
slack at his crib
i think im not feelin well sey
ntahlah mungkin baru bangun tido
jadi rasa badan mcm panas gitu..

to nad aka ma online close-fwen hehehe :D
one of de bloggermate dat love to chat with yet to meet:D

aku tk ambik hati dgn kata2 kau,coz
u advice me as a fren
coz kau lagik kenal erti mana baik tk baik
kerana kau dah lama dah experienced dlm hubungan
antara adam dan hawa cheydebah haha
kau tk nk put high hope
if tk menjadii *touchwood* nanti aku yg terseksa
tapi nad... aku sygkan dia...mcm kau ckp
hopefully fadli tkknn ******* (censored)
hhehehehe maybe i dunch noe him tat well
coz we're still new..
but im in proccessin to know him de real him...
and i've begun tat journey...
tu yg bikin aku ni dah mula nak fikir merepek
kasih syg dah mencurah2 aiysebala...
haiz but im really glad to have a fren like u
who always make me feel n think positive
in de middle of anger...
love ya babe....

to LADY JAY aka ma adeq
im glad too dat kau dah ok dgn apekmu hehehe
im sorie tat i cant tok much with u yesterday
hope kau tk ambik hati k syg...
tgh rindu apek pe...sabarlah ni dugaan kau
yg tiap hari2 asyik berjumpa..
aku pun kena..tapi tk mcm kaunye dugaan sampai 2 minggu strait
hehehe....aku syg kau lah bacin...

to all former chud babe
amoy,kay&ketot. . ..
aku nak jumpa korg kita kuar ramai2 ar
aku plan slalu cock up im not a gd organizer
and korg tiga ar ma true fren...
always ba ma side and stands for me...
i love u guys

will cherishe n treasure all de friendship between me and all of u guyz
gonna mesmerize all memories
w/o momsie, brotha, twin, honeybitch, BABY, ma gfs
im juz a loner...
love u guyz aload....
especially AMIR FADLI wa lup sama lu lah jacko hahaha

2006-05-13T12:41:00.000+08:00

seriously i wont be replyin taggies for de time bein
coz aku nak type ma entry long2
ma tagboard is only FOR U GUYS TO LEAVE MSG
if u cant get me ONLINE IN MSN okies
korg nak merepek merapu pun lantak lah

k last nite was awesome??
dunch noe for BABY, YANTI, HER CHIPMUNK, AM, CHANEL & IJUD... :D
i dunch really know how de story goes..
ngah WAITIN FOR YANTI aka NASTY to go ONLINE
and also ma PRECIOUS BABY TO RING ME UP

k aku citer ape kita buat smlm
paisey ar if aku pe entry campur ENGMALAY wakakaka

yesterday aku kuar dgn LINDA aka kakak aku for A DAY oni
wih ma grebo AMIRAH...
we went KBOX at cinieliesure. . . .
ntah ape steam dia ajak aku kuar...
but of course bukan dia blanja ar..
but her fren WAK SARIP aka kawan mak aku pe laki jugak
kita pat sana from 5.30-7.45pm
skejap erk??
kita pe choose lagu je berejam sia
nyanyi terpaksa separuh2 ...
ade lagu mawi summore!! wakakakaka
i had 8 glass of burboun and im so tipsy oredi

msged baby minta jumpa lekas..
wakaka aku gatal...:D
it was ard 20.45hrs aku dah kat BAWAH BLK LINDA
waited for his msg to ask aku gerak from there lah
and mit him sumwhere else..
after 45mins exactly,
and aku mangkok sebab STEAM HILANG
geram to de core hahahaha
den
BABY MSGED ckp mit at CHEERS
aku pun go..
jumpa dia, BABY SIKIT PE WANGI..
tak habis2 dgn MP4 dia...
BABY ckp jumpa bdk2 pat RAILWAY
aku ckp ok lor...

we took cab proceed railway
tu lah buat pertama kali aku nampak
YANTI AKA NASTY kekeke
she look so SWEET and mcm minah sikit
hahahaahhaha jgn marah ar belo :D
nampak minah becoz of her GOLD HAIR i think
kekeke
ard 2245hrs baby kasi duit pat NASTY pe CHIPMUNK
suruh beli air
ard 2330hrs aru gerak from railway
KITA PI EASTCOAST...

well about OUR MISSION kan...
belum lagik dilaksanakan
tergendala due to masalah peribadi
oni kita2 je tau :D
k back to story....
aku ngan baby lek jap blakang mac
and we tok2 haiz...
den diorg pun sampai..
yg ikut..
AM,NASTy,HER BF'S,IJUD and his GF's CHANEL...
they bought 3 stout,2baron 1 chivas
wahlauwey wakakakakaka
we spotted a place kita pun duduk
kat pit no. berapa ntah
jauh jugak ar dari 7eleven wakakakak

minum pe minum pe minum pe minum
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asal blank??
tats de story which aku sendiri tak tahu
korg must wait NASTY and BABY
to fill in de blank..
wat aku tahu
aku korek and muntah kat tepi jalan
sikit sober tapi steam tk hilang
high dok..haiz ni lah
not a gd drinker nak minum padah dia GINI
menyusahkan org
chanel kasi aku mentos MASAM GILER
nasty kasi aku air LIME MASAM NK MAMPUS
den kita go toilet
k ni part tk yah citer lah
to cut de story short
smua dah salam2
aku ngan baby pun took cab
went hm
he hantar me 1st den he alik
we tok for a while
and he did make me cry :'(
"syg kita akan sampai bila-bila kan, tkmo tinggalkan i tau dear i syg u"
aku terus jawab"yes kita akan sampai bila2, wont leave u,love u gak BABY"
den we sleep...

really wanna thanx
BABY,AM,NASTY,HER BF,IJUD & CHANEL
for handelin me...aku paisey betul nye paisey ):
wa lurb sama lu olang ,lu olang JIWA

YANTI!!!
aku nak ngadu nasib
badan aku sakit
bnyk calar2sey kat tangan aku...
sluar aku smua pasir..
and I LOST MA LEFT GOLD-EARING
uwek ma momsie goins to kill me wakakakaka

for BABY
i tkkn tinggalkan u
we'll live our lifes togetha2 till our last breath
and we will love each other even after death
u're ma everythin to me
no one can eva replace u in ma heart
u make me believe in TRUE & PURE LOVE BACK
our mission will be accomplished in dis MONTH
dun cha worry k syg
i dun give a fark org nak ckp ape lagik
dis is OUR HAPPINESS... and i've to achieved it
love u syg

K YANTI BELO AND BABY SYG IF U HAPPEN TO READ DIS
MASUK MSN IF NAMPAK AKU NUDGE2 K
AKU NAK DGR STORY EKEKEKEKE
IF TK PUN KOL HP AKU :D
aku dgr2 end of de month nak g KARAOKE ERK???
kekekek :D yahooo will be meetin korg lagik best
k tats all love u guys load2

2006-04-30T11:47:00.000+08:00

yeah i dunch know why for dis past few days
i love to update
maybe im in a best mood ever
well yesterday i got to spend time with ma BABY
yeah!!!
but juz for a few hrs...
from 17.30hrs -01.45hrs
8 hrs?? woHOoooo
kekekeke....
baby bougHt me as USual 2 jD
since i cannOt driNk alot
due TO DE INCIDENT till masuk hospital :D
hahaha but ok lah
juz to accompany baby
member dapat progress packet ..blanje lah tu
get to eat MAC DONALD..dah lama sey tk makan
wakakakak...
wa lurb sama lu!!!
thanx for de food & drinks,
thanx for spending time with me,
thanx for de huggies & kisses,
thanx for an hr giving me space to sleep in ya arms
touching kan..
hehehehe...
and most of all
thanx for de love u showered despite
of me always have doubt in ya kesungguhan
now i realised ( ish aku asyik nak realise aje kekekeke)
AKU SEMEMANGNYA UNTUKMU SAYANG
cheydebah...
insyallah untuk selamanya jugak!!! yeah...

k guys today aku nak go swiMMing with ma TWIN and de rest of de cuzie
sowie baby tk dpt go arcade with u today
u go and continue ya beauty sleep k syg
kekeke..
will try to mit u tomorow
sayang u fadli!!!sesungguhnya...
de best spending time ever!!! yeah i lioooke
gonna mesmerized all de momment we had!!! kewl..

gtg peepz..
chalO!!

2006-04-28T18:14:00.000+08:00

well today smua org above 21 dapat duit GOVERMENT
yeah kekeke
pity me :D not yet 21 hahahaha
but nvm...
yg ade tu share2 lah dengan aku
baby lagik rabak...
dia ckp dia dah save up duit dah habis bluek
ma bro isaac i told him to give me some so he will get baraka'
kekeke he farked me back " barakah bontot kau" :D
well i juz came back from ma aunt crib's
haf fun playin monopoly with ma cuzzie Azie
kekeke she's so slenge doesnt know how to count
whenever de dice been roll..lame sey
tkpe member dah nak masuk ITE BISHAN
woHHoo dah besar anak ANI
i missin ma BABy right now
tengah hujan summore shiok ar member tido ishh :D
k aku kan yg tgh kemarok bercinta so aku nak wished US
HAPPY 3mtn 8days ANNIVERSARY :D

k tu je tkde benda nak update
maybe kuar dgn family aku go jalan2 duit dah masuk pe kekeke
yeah minta2 diorg baik hati belikan aku IPOD NANO ahhahaa

2006-04-26T10:39:00.000+08:00

well dis entry goin to be abt ma feelIng
toward ma relatIonship
im so much in love with amir fadli
he's de one who showed me everythin abt love
i may sound weird but tats de truth
but are we really fated to live together for de rest of our life??
i dun really know as i cant predict future
baby dis is for u
i may sound very lame but i do really love u

here de feeling goes ; pardon me if ma malay or so called madah sux..im new at it

sesuatu yang tidak di pernah ku duga telah terjadi

~~zyanisk hanya tinggal memori~~

meraung sendiri sambil berdebat di hati

kenapa ku dibohongi sebegini

sekian lama menyemai kasih

tidak pernah sekalipun dihargai

malah

kepalsuan cinta terpatri menyakitkan jiwa

kerna bukan hanya ku seorang di hatinya

sedang aku menggapai2 mencari arah

bertemu insan yg ku anggap Amat istimewa

bagiku kehadirannya

bagai sinar menerangi kegelapan rahsia

terpaut hati kecil ku ini

dengan kejujuran yang dimiliki

bertanya sang hati

adakah ini kebahagian yg sebenar??

adakah dia berjiwa setia??

atau

hanya hempedu yang berbisa

hati menagih untuk dibelai manja

berteka-teki ku bersilang kata

ingin menguji keikhlasan hatinya

apa ku lihat

hanya kejujuran yg tebal dalam dirinya

telah mencairkan hati yg lama luka

Sang pria bernamakan Amir FAdli

bagai bidadara menarikku dari terus kian parah

memaut jari-jemariku

bersumpah janji ingin membahagiakanku

senyuman ku ukir manis

bila dahiku dikucup mesra

menutup mata sambil berbisik di hati

Andai aku bukan untukknya

biarkanlah dia yang terakhir buatku di alam fana

kerana dia

aku telah mengenali cinta tanpa membuta mata

-= the end=-

p/s : i really love u baby and really do

lookin forward for our so called big day... insyallah :D

and btw baby at ma crib rite now tgh sleep like a chicken wakakaka :D

pity him tired..muax syg u gundu i tkkn tinggalkan u k...jgn takot lah ish

2006-04-24T15:10:00.000+08:00

*tag replied with entry

ct : keke hey syg, ku also dah linked u ar hehe :D
nasty : nanti kita sembang2 sememangnya kau nasty babe.. nice knowin u
mimi caramel : aku lurb sama lO gak belo
fiona : hehe sowie lah syg :D prob asyik dtg je
zin@na : ape chipsmore nak chip ahoy ar heheh

new layout again for me

sorie dah lama tk update

i juz lurb dis song and dis layout of mine..

well life been pretty gd for me

between me n babymakin rancak kita bercinta

bluek:p

we got discuzz sumthin

tat really makes me smile sampai lah skrg

hopefully jadi lah ape yg kita rancang

wen de times comes i tell u guyz k :D

to all ma ex...

sorie arse

i really really doesnt need ya guys anymore

i've found ma real happiness and pure love

in ma CHICKEN LITTLE

alah amir fadli lah :D

why i call him tat coz..

he does look like de CL keke..

and he called me KING KONG rabak ek

watever its is..

will update again.

.missh baby...:* muax syg...

thanx for really understand me..

u're de best of de best of des best nye atas..

for lady jay

i feel so touched with wat ur entry in ya blog :D

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adioz

2006-04-20T07:57:00.000+08:00

its ~~freakin 8am~~ in de mornin

and im still not yet sleepin

i feel damn shagged..

do u guys wanna noe why??

coz i've been callin BABY since yesterday

9+pm till 2+am...

and from 3am till 7+am

i wrote a pOEM :D

smngt ek?? bley tahan ar

juz to kill boredom

sorie syg2 kuz yg TAG

still i cant reply hehehe

but apprieciate with korg

pe care n concern..lurb2 sama LU org

well today is

Fa[D]eE 3mnth Anniversary

and

BABY still doesn't even wish me

padahal tadi dia sms...

stakat sayin sorie n otw g work

arghh

still doesnt even hear a single soul of wish

kata org..

honeymoon period dah habis ek??

haiz

im mad...and really mad..

i noe dis isnt a big issue

but i will make it be VERY VERY BIG ah dun care

hey its our 3mnth together!!!

doesnt he know tat...he knows but he forgot??

how ridiculous he can be ..sob..sob..

am i not important to hIM??

BABY LISTEN HERE!!

watever things or stuff tats got to do with US

are BLOODY IMPORTANT OK

so next time stick dis to ya brain...

now im being over-sensetive??

to heLL with it..dun care

im being attitude?? im juz being me!!!

fark ya own arse..

not u baby so jgn perasan OK

but for other peepz

who try thier very best acting

like as if dey really understand me

but

~~they actually dun..lame kan...bullshit~~

well baby if u happen to read dis

u ought to know tat

im ~~really upset~~

and really really upset with u

will be kollin u

wen i kol u lah k

dun cha worry I TAK GO MANA2

but to ma twin's crib

dun bother to call her ask for me..

cocz u will never get me...

till den peepz..

biar ku membasuh luka chedebah...

HAPPY 3 MNTH TOGETHER SYG

MAY KITA JGN NAK PERANGAI SLALU

TAU2 AJELAH DARAH MUDA

JGN NAK IKUTKAN SNGT..

AND

IM NOT OVERSENSETIVE OK

love ya BIOL!!

and before i forget B

i dah activate ma ANAKMELAYU ACCOUNT :'(

2006-04-19T15:54:00.000+08:00

hey guys..
its been 6 days straight tat i didnt even update
wat telah happen??
baca K...
it will be a happy entry

everything, de shits tat been occured for 2 wks strait
have been settled on the 15.04.06
i've bought for both baby n me engravenment rings
its juz a silver ring..
haiz..
tanda relationship kita je :D
on de day itself
i was at nia's crib
baby fetch me at marsling MRT
den we proceed to b.gombak mrt to meet NAZ & huda
we thought of goin MOS
dj tiesto ade babe...
but we change planned after we reached there ard 22.30hrs
entry $40+ rabak ek..ekeke
queue dia pun ok ok ar bley tahan
by the way
budget babe...
baby yg blanje kita 4 keke...
w/o hesitation
de 4 of us juz went boat quay minum²
as usual baby bought for me JD COLA
and for dem baron n stout...
ard 12.15hrs Bunny & raqib joined us..
all the crappy converstaion started
keke huda nye salah info..
ONLY kita je tau ahaha
we started to tipsy so decided went tunnel

reached tunnel ard 01.15hrs..
and u wanna know wat..
tkde org kat dlm...
keke..
melainkan KITA 6 org and de BOUNCERS too lah
keke..kelakar habis...
den smua turun g minum kat bawah..
dey boought amsterdam dgn ape ntah...
i tk drink coz kat atas dah ade air...
den me n huda naik pasal mendak kat bawah...
den AM pun dtg...
baru de place started to crowd
BUT NOT DE DANCE FLOOR
keke...

wen the dj hit sientelo, MIRAME and temperature...
me n huda pun joget...ajak AM skali
baby n huda's fiancee duduk ketawa2
geram je...
walaupun mendak tetap
I HAVE FUN keke...
and i promised myself tknk jejak tunnel lagik..

although dah kul 3.30hrs
tunnel mcm tempat JALAN BAHAR SIAK...
me reached hm ard 0500hrs..
balik dua2 KO sampai besok kul 1600hrs :D

antara aku n abg isaac dah ok
haiz..
i juz hope he really meant his word
dat he will understand ma situation..
and i try to make a distance with linda...

another 8hrs 51mins to go to
FA[D]EE 3mnth anniversary yipee...
love u syg....

to all the taggies sorie cant reply now hehe...
will reply next entry aite...woHOOo

2006-04-13T17:03:00.000+08:00

mengapa ini smua harus berlaku
apakah ini smua kerna diriku

lyric taken from watever song dey called PERANGKAP CINTA??

will not be bloggin till everythin settle
especially between me n BABY

never i cried dis mUCH..nvr...
never i love someone like as if he's ma NYAWA...
nvr i wantin so much to live with a guy
like i hopin to be his wife to live by his side for de rest of ma life..
nvr i beggin a gUY not to leave me...

oh god..return him back to me asap
im missin him now..
sob...sob...sob...
i never felt dis way....
oh god pls dun stressed me again n again n again...im done

2006-04-11T14:51:00.000+08:00

aku bagai terkapai2 mencari arah kebahagiaan

hidupku kini seperti tiupan taufan yg kencang

aku begitu lemah dan tk berdaya

aku hilang seseorang yg selama ini

ku anggap kekuatanku

hanya kerana satu kesilapan

aku dihukum dgn zalim

ingin ku memohon kemaafaan

tapi hanya sang bayu yg didengari telinganya

dia bagai tuli kan telinga untuk mendengar penjelasan ku

mungkin kah aku terlalu emosi??

aku bingung

istana cinta yg telah ku bina pada 20.01.06

bagai hanyut dipukul gelora badai

masih bernyawa....

cuma hilang serinya...

aku merindui masa2

bahagia ku bersama amir fadli

aku rindukan sgalanya..

aku amat merindui kehidupan ku sebulan yg lalu......

bilakah smua ini akan kembali??

aku tk pasti..

akan ku telan segala hempedu yg dilempari

ku mohon padamu yang BERKUASA

jika ini balasanMU terhadap dosa2ku yg telah ku lakukan

aku meminta AMPUN

berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhnya

kerna ku tak sanggup

melukakan hati AMIR FADLI yg amat ku syangi

dgn diri yg terlalu stress dgn problem ini...

sabarkanlah dirinya dari melepaskan aku pergi buat slamnya..

aku masih memerlukan kehadirannya dlm hidup ku

YA ALLAH

jika waktu ku sudah HAMPIR

tariklah nyawaku dgn segera.....

supaya aku tidak menjadi beban pada yg LAIN

terutama pada AMIRFADLI...

2006-04-09T16:11:00.000+08:00

i really need time to recover

from all this shit

i really need to be maself back

oh god help me

im missin sumone

its fadli

missh him..

miss us bein happy like we used to

and

ma bro isaac..

wen will he comes to his senses

to understand me back

i feel so down

i feel really down wen i read his pm

cruely indirectly sayin abt me

" u're not fit to talk to me,

if u got problem dun come to me,

i wont be involve in ur life ever again

u shud know who u're"

do u know how its feel wen ur real brother

sayin tat to u

it juz hurt

never i've been hurt this much

although it juz a word

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im lost

2006-04-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

Tag replied with edited entry

phashionstarr* : thanx sYG, uu take care toO:D

fiona : hehe i mISs readiN urs toO babe

baby's***y : u experiencing it TOo kewl...i juz duNNolah syg haiz

baby sweetie : i also neba fail to read urs update lah slalu ye keke hopin toO

he wiLl learn alot abt me :D

yan : u pweEty2 toO, linked U oweDi babe, thanx for de adDIn toO

mimicaramel : Hehehe Linked U toO sweEty, u 4 thuMbs up yipeee :p

baby sweetie : B!! maceh i dah dgr falL in lub with TAt sONg siak...kekeke

Kay : aku tk sedih sngt ar down je...hehe sama lah tU..kau jeleskan gmbr aku bnyk

bluekz

mohammed : ish bnyk masa awak ye nak change url keke hehe reliNked u dUde

today nothin much happen

yet i get to spend time with baby

he wanted to surprise me so much

but im not

i noe he will be cumin early

ard 1445hrs i siap2

den we went off to ma twin's crib

despite all the arguement dat occurs

for de past few days

i juz hope everything will end and back to normal SOON

~~i really missh being happy~~

~~i really need to smile at de least for me & baby~~

~~i need to be ma ownself back~~

there's a lil prob goin on between me n ma bro

haiz

how i wish he understand me like he used to

i really doesnt know how to communicate with him back

i smsed him but he doestn even reply

smsed his gf

she asked me to win his trust back

but wat did i go wrong to be accused like dis

although he's ma REAL BRO

we're not tat close but we do understand each other well

watever happen between me and tat "sis J"

i've ma every reason why i kind like PATCH things up

till even accompanied her to de SYF thingy

bro

i will not be able to take de blow if u leave me with all this shit

like i said before i will never ever forget wat she have done to me

and makes our family DISASTER

i really2 need u back in am life

dun juz dumped me

pls come back

dun act like stranger

pls forgive me if i did hurt u w/o realising it

to baby...

i noe we've been arguin ALOT lately

but we've dealt with it maturedly (got such word meh??)

and i love u more n more like always

i noe peoples prone to make mistake

but we've brain dat can think

and avoid to make such silly mistake like u DID

i really lost ma confidence bit by bit each day

ma self esteem gone drastically

i lost ma pillar of strength tats ma bro

for BABY

sorie dat i've being so attitude towards u

and even i've changed to be a sHORT-tempered gurl

there's so much burden i've been carryin

i need to let go but i juz dunno how

even if i cry every min

the tears juz doesnt flow

it stark inside

and its hurtin me

ma parents are driving me craziiee

i may seem happy outside

~~but i juz a prisoner inside~~

only a bad egg get to b treated fairly in ma family

im GD too gd to deserve tat kind of treatment

dey will mocked at me whenever they feels like to

baby pls dun let go of me

i really need time for all this shit

i'vebeen facing for so many years

i really need u to be bymaside

i really cant hold anymore

pls dun leave me alone like ma bro did

dun ever leave me alon

dun ever....

im hopeless :"(

2006-04-01T15:18:00.000+08:00

hey guyz long time no see

kHeheKEkke

well been bz and very tirin for de past few days

so no time for blogging

and

u guyz must be wonderin y did i delete ma blog??

nah

some of de html was deleted accidentenly

by sumone,, u know who u are

waKAkakakaka

change some of de pix hehehe

nice??

last thusrday was a really hard & sad day for BABY

HIS Atuk hembuskan nafas terakhir ard 4+ or 5pm i think

coz recieved baby msg ard 5+pm

sayin "dear sorie i cant tok to u, atuk dah takde"

hope ATUK's soul rest in peace..

amin~

for all the taggies

sorie i cant reply..malas ar..

eke but i've link u guyz UP..

really go check it out sendiri..

to ma BABY syg one n ONi bacin biol ni..

i really love u syg..

today really i wanna go clUB,

but i feel lik shit iyelah

ya kenduri i didnt go but wana go club...

i wil grant ya wish

I WILL STAY AT HM

i mish u :D

c i didnt even break ma promises

YipEEEEEeeee

dis song i dedicated to u

i really itno dis song..

it really expressed ma feelings for U

syg u fadli..

hoPin eevrything we wish for will be granted..

and one of the wished in ma wishlish hehe

gtg..

2006-03-19T19:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with BABY

met huda & baby at cck mrt center cabin

huda have cut her hair short

nice babe

took mrt towards jurong

coz will be alightin at clementi

waited for naz back from work

smngt balik kul 6

nak minum pe pasal ahax

reached NAZ nye lagi satu crib

chill tengok big moMMa II

juz for a while

coz we started to drink

and played taitee

keke

baby bought martell & stout

naz bought his baron

and

BAD INCIDENT OCCURS

its all ma fault

twice sia aku cock up kan situation

my asthma attack and HmM terlalu penat

and TOO DRUNK

aku pun lupa ape jadik cuma...

baca je lah

BABY told me aku kecoh

merengek sakit

kesian huda kena tepis air dgn aku

well darlz i apprieciate ya help

really if w/o kau aku rasa

aku gone

really ma chest damn pain sia

and part touchin

BABY ckp aku tk panggil dia pun

aku asyik called out nama HUDA

alah syg..

i also dunno wat telah happen

wat i noe aku sibuk dgn sakit aku

keke

BABY kelam kabut

he called ambulance..

and i was sent to TTSH

docotr advised baby

NOT TO GIVE ME HARD LIQOUR

anymore kkeekeke

ingat baby NO HARD LIQOUR for me

but i can still drink soft liqour hehe

baby accompanied me from dunnolah wat time

aku tk tengok time pun

kol mOMMa

she cant be bother abt me at all

i remembered before im out to meet baby

she told me to GO AND DIE

haiz..

mOMMa..wats got into u sey..

Baby syg..

i truly realised tat u really meant

wat u've said to KAK REEN

u told her

yu've found de gurl u've been lookin for

and tats me..

syg..

im lost of words..

u keep on kissin ma head

busuk tak??

hehe..

but i really feel more n more secure in ya arms

u hug me in cab

u sent me hm

u even tukarkan baju aku

touchin ek..haiz

u paid for eveyrthin

syg..

aku cinta padamu..

really..

u the 1st man showed me

wats LOVE IS ALL ABOUT

really

ayamak tk percaya plak..

i wanna meet u today nak pelUK!!!

nak cium dahi nak show how much i love u

but too bad..

besok je dpt mit

coz baby busy..

i love u amir fadli

u've opened ma heart with ur sincerety n honesty

to naz & huda

thanx ek korg..jaga aku..

baik2 tgh high...

pasal aku terus korg segar

well kaki aku sakit..pedih

tulah sape suruh aku campak botol STOUT BABY

hehe sowie syg

how i wish i know how to repay u guys back

BABY SYG I LOVE U...

2006-03-17T20:45:00.001+08:00

i've always remind maself not to

BITCH ABT PEOPLE IF PEOPLE DOESNT BITCH ABT ME

but in dis case it's different

dis living things has got on ma nerve long time already

cannot tahan liao

am i lame??

by all means

u may call me names..

i dun give a damn abt it..

Okhai here the DRAMA GOEs

well

sumone out there in ma friendlist..

has been a FIRESTARTER

to all de shitish

i've been hearin from ALL de OUTLOOKERzz

all this while

she's being such an ANGEL "infront"

but an UgLy deviL "beHind"

faham2 kan je lah ngada2 ek..

KeWL..

well IDIOTIC SISSY listen here

i dun even give a damn

how good u dress or make UP is..

or even how more uglier u can BE..

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

if u thInk u wanna play roUGH..

coME on

DARE U

u KNOw who u farkin are

im glad u noe

coz u're hiding from all de shit u've made

and put up a gd sincere actin to be friend with SUMONE

pls make a round of applause for this

SO CALLED FWEN OF MINE

wakAKkakaka

well jzu to make u all clear..

its A SHE !! okhai

never once u ever apprieciate me

left alone all ya smooth words tat comes out

from ya stinky bloody mouth

look yaself in de mirror BITCH

wow..

a bitch??

are u worth to be called a bitch??

HELL NO

u're one BLOODY FARKIN BIMBO

karma lady..

why i call u a lady??

coz a gurl wont be playin dis kind of nasty game

u will get back MULTIPLE WAT u've give to me

its time for PAYBACK...

what she have done??

only some of de bloggers who noes what im CRAPPIn abt here

FARKIN NOES WAT DAT SISSY HAVE DONe..

shit..

how i wish i can TELL U GUYS

I aint gd at summary keke

so try to be close with me hehe

den i will tell keke

btw SISSY

thanx for everythin u have showered me..

shud i type it here??

nah it will only make u ashame of yaself..

but i noe u've been ashame of yaself all this while

DARLING SISSY

there's a prayer for U

OH LORD u're de greatest..

u've been blessin me

with all de beautiful people in ma life

im gifted to have

ma bloggermate

ma mOmma

ma BABY BIOL

ma honeysis NIA

ma egoistic bro IsAac

ma GurLz

But

ALMIGHTY

im beggin U

there's sumone who i really want u to

take HER AWAY from me

coz she didnt even deserve ma appologies at all

she's been such a dearie at 1st

but a TURN OFF after

discovered all her bad intention

she's been makin me

juz a place for her to release her BOREDOM

yeah...

oNLY U CAN MAKE HER REALISE how

cruel she have been..

i wont say all dis to her face..

coz there's still a mercy in me..

last but not least

MONEY DOESNT BUY EVERYTHIN

if u wanna be a NASTY BITCH..

do learn from me im gd at PAY BACK TIME..

if my DOA doesnt make

u comes to ya senses

may u live ur life in agony

AMIN

2006-03-16T11:40:00.000+08:00

well guyz

im so confused rite now

try to clear things..

by the way

in relationship if both parties have many fwens

wat i mean etc..

the guy got LOTS OF gfs n the gurl got LOTS of Bfs

confirm GADUH kan..

although HOW UNDERSTANDIN they cud BE..

to prevent from all the jealousy, curious, doubts thingy

de best things we can do is noy to TO CTC dem so often..

PALING BAGUS buat bodoh je lah..

but in ma case it's SO BLOODY DIFFERENT

my circle of fwen is so small...DAMN SMALL

hmm bfs??.... nah...ONLINE only..ctc thru OFFLINE??hell NO..

hmm i've changed ma nO.

even ma ex or watever you all called it, they cant even reached me.

they got ma house NO. but dun think they even dare to call..

BABY lakz...HAVE LOTS OF GFS...really lots

and i dun even care..

coz he did take de iniative HIMSELF to stop ctc or mittin his GFs & EXs

so there will be

NO pROBLEM OF JEALOUSY & DOUBTS AT ALL..

but dis few days duNNo why Hmmm...

we start to argue over small lil thing

dah mcm hobby plak

try ma very best to avoid all this prob ...we juz cudnt

lagi perit ek..

MA BABY SUKA BERLETER

wakakaka

are all VIRGO smua ade cita2 nak jadi lecturer ke??

hmm haiz...sakit kepala otak..

why in relationship always occurs all the misunderstandin thingy

geram je.

adat berkasih ek??

ish mcm meminta gaduh je..

darah UP

BABY SYG....

bnyk betul perasaan org i nak jaga

lebih2 lagi perasaan org yg i syg..

one of DEM you noe IT'S YOU

i noe im a sesentive BIG gurl

i noe how nasty i can talk if sumone gets on ma nerve

u DID get on ma nerve last nite

i juz kept quiet and listened to YA LECTURES

and cried...

i dun want to repeat de same mistake..wat mistake

kaypo ar korg smua nak tahu keke

im sorie for bein so silence last nite..

i dun want the arguement JADI LAGI PANJANG

u asked me to tell u if there's anythin den i dun like abt u

i wont tell..coz i noe if i tell u will change

and if u change..

it's like startin for scratch nowin u..

there's nothing to CHANGE ABT U or even ABT ME

juz TRY NOT TO DO IT AGAIn..

do what??..

THE LONG LECTURE

hehehe

hopefully we can go through all upcomin obstacles

with LORD wilLs..

i love u baby and i noe u do too

mittin u later..

but how to mit when i didnt even receieve one single msg from BABY

sob..sob..sob